mixed emotions.

like that. like how i feel right this days. in fact from th starting of this year.

i shall get this straight. if you cant understand me why th fuck are you still holding on? you cant be on my shoes. you dun undertand th difficulties im going through. you are egois. you always think of what's th best for you. fuck afiq fuck afiq. if all you can do is release all your hurt and anger through your notes, i guess its better for you to fuck off from my life. if im such a big burden to you, always hurt your feelings, why bother waiting? fuck off. all you see, all you heard, of everything, and making a conclusion to it without even asking why so. you are one typical pathetic person. ok.

oh, i can be this bad k one day. 

enough of what you did to my relationship once. or i'll do th same thing to your relationship with your current guy yang tak sebrape. you need to have a sense of a little bit of some originality siket. and mind your manners during cca whatsoever. oh i dun like. in fact most of your senior hate you too. please tkmu step nak rule smdc eh. nak shout sane shout sini. k.

♥

yesterday was awetastic baybeh! ;D im lovin it. went to watch OMF semifinals at citysquare with loved. i came late so i didnt manage to catch up nurianni's show. sadly, nurianni didnt make it to finals. CHEERUP nurianni. there's nextyear. then we took pictures and off home-d. cuncun smpai uma da buke. ;D huhu ^^

Maybe people find everything as a joke that can laugh around with it. But somehow i find it aggressive. Maybe they simply dont understand th definiton of other people's life. Or maybe they shouldnt. But at least must have known we hate their way. But they seem to neglect everything. They love what they are doing. People cant simply knw we're hurt inside but by our expression they shud have understand. Till now. Define true friends for me please. D': help me overcome every obstacles im going thru. I cant afford crying over again my pain that no one seems to knw. Stop having that sense of revenge abt others. Be someone i used to knw. For now, i dont need anyone. I will have something or maybe this blog to pour out all my burdens. Bcos for what if i was to share, they will just comfort me and give advices. Hey, maybe single life is more like it. No use of having someone you trust so much but still hurting you all over again. D': it doesnt give any use hurting myself over stupid things. Maybe im th one who is stupid. Stupid of being afraid of losing you. Maybe this is not all i wanna say. Maybe this is part of it. CHILL. Its not easy to do that man. D': I HATE ME ! D':

Sweet Afternooooon !  ;D

hi, i did not attend school today. two reasons for that. stress sick and besides incompleted homework. but going back school later to finish up my art. niway, i screwed up my n oral on tuesday. bye, aku stress sick. i need rest.

i got bored staring over th screen & its staring back at me, like always. so since i dont wanna sleep, im taking this precious chance to update. i had tiring practice during cca for upcoming arts nyte. cikgu petpot for nt concentrating on my studies. & im putting more effort on cca. so maybe i'll be kick out of th performance. nyahaha. fuck studies. i dont think i can balance anymore. today new term starts, principal is gonna give long lecture in th morning like usual. *heads on table. none of my homeworks are done. malay homework, is a must. but not sure if i got mood to do. okay, put tht aside. i lost my upper barbell. & tht is saaad. its colourful, like very & its lost alrdy. & now its replace with plastikkk blue tht b gave me. but im still saaaad, its sangaaat colourful. ohmy. *flap ears. williams, i wanna have a heart to heart talk with you but maybe i cant. cos i knw i'll cry for every single problems i'll share. how ah kontot? sigh. *smack forehead. bye, out of words. :/

UNCERTAINTY.

is th biggest torture in love. you feel jealous yet you cant complain.

you get hurt yet you cant show it.
you can love with your all yet you cant say it.

all you can do is watch & enjoy th smiles. KEEP TH PAIN.

& show how much tht person means to you.