I got nowhere to let out how i feel for this particular one day. And i knw every single thing tht happened started from me. I knw i was up to my ego. Bcos i wanna stand on my own even th path im going to means th other way round. And look, i got life tht no one can instruct me to lead ways. I knw you want th best for me, but understand me first can ? You seem to put more burden on me. I cant stand every single thing tht you asked and told. You like stalking me yknw. I knw you care but i also knw my limit. I can take care of myself. I not baby alrdy. I knw what im doing right now whether its bad or good. But please, dun take me like as if i got small kid's brain can ? I want freedom also lah. This one like you putting more pressure on me plus my mum's. I also want live like others. Born with supportive mum. Have mum tht doesnt compare. Now you like one of her. Can live one house, one gang ah.

And right now, i feel regretted for not attending maths consultation today. I knw i made th wrong decision. I dun want talk this much. Cos for i knw there's surely unhappiness. And for i knw this may brings me down to everything. Can someone like put yourselves in my shoes like tht ? I cannot tahan lah when someone is not happy with me just bcos they do not understand what im going through. And when some people get tease abt small things, they may tend to be sensitive. Some people may think teasing people is a justforlaugh thing and they do not even knw how others feel abt th teasing. People like tht just got no warm feelings for others. This is just some people who wants to be proud cos they entertain th public. Good enough ? 

For th mean time, farhan is not in a good mood bcos someone commented abt hym being with me bcos of whaaat only. Okay, this is humiliating. And i hate it when i dun want mention names here. But if not, till when to keep this hard feelings ? Eh enough lah. I told you i wanna stand up on my own. But not like this man. Everywhere i step into you wanna knw. When can you stop to be like this ? And to some people out there yang terase, understand how others feel can ? Put yourselves in people's shoes also can ? I wanna end everything in comfortable ways but i dun knw how to. I wanna text those tht i disappoints them today but i have no guts at all bcos im wrong. And people will go blaming me for everything. Im so definitely useless.

Bye, dun go ask and text if im okay.

Aku selalu okay.