loveyouubaby.

ahhhhhh again.

2011-03-17T18:15:00.000-07:00

mixed emotions.

like that. like how i feel right this days. in fact from th starting of this year.

i shall get this straight. if you cant understand me why th fuck are you still holding on? you cant be on my shoes. you dun undertand th difficulties im going through. you are egois. you always think of what's th best for you. fuck afiq fuck afiq. if all you can do is release all your hurt and anger through your notes, i guess its better for you to fuck off from my life. if im such a big burden to you, always hurt your feelings, why bother waiting? fuck off. all you see, all you heard, of everything, and making a conclusion to it without even asking why so. you are one typical pathetic person. ok.

oh, i can be this bad k one day.

enough of what you did to my relationship once. or i'll do th same thing to your relationship with your current guy yang tak sebrape. you need to have a sense of a little bit of some originality siket. and mind your manners during cca whatsoever. oh i dun like. in fact most of your senior hate you too. please tkmu step nak rule smdc eh. nak shout sane shout sini. k.

2010-08-29T15:26:00.000-07:00

♥

yesterday was awetastic baybeh! ;D im lovin it. went to watch OMF semifinals at citysquare with loved. i came late so i didnt manage to catch up nurianni's show. sadly, nurianni didnt make it to finals. CHEERUP nurianni. there's nextyear. then we took pictures and off home-d. cuncun smpai uma da buke. ;D huhu ^^

Nlevel in two weeks time ! gaaaaaaahhhhh.

backk.

2010-08-10T16:16:00.000-07:00

Maybe people find everything as a joke that can laugh around with it. But somehow i find it aggressive. Maybe they simply dont understand th definiton of other people's life. Or maybe they shouldnt. But at least must have known we hate their way. But they seem to neglect everything. They love what they are doing. People cant simply knw we're hurt inside but by our expression they shud have understand. Till now. Define true friends for me please. D': help me overcome every obstacles im going thru. I cant afford crying over again my pain that no one seems to knw. Stop having that sense of revenge abt others. Be someone i used to knw. For now, i dont need anyone. I will have something or maybe this blog to pour out all my burdens. Bcos for what if i was to share, they will just comfort me and give advices. Hey, maybe single life is more like it. No use of having someone you trust so much but still hurting you all over again. D': it doesnt give any use hurting myself over stupid things. Maybe im th one who is stupid. Stupid of being afraid of losing you. Maybe this is not all i wanna say. Maybe this is part of it. CHILL. Its not easy to do that man. D': I HATE ME ! D':

2010-07-09T12:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday.

Sweet Afternooooon ! ;D

hi, i did not attend school today. two reasons for that. stress sick and besides incompleted homework. but going back school later to finish up my art. niway, i screwed up my n oral on tuesday. bye, aku stress sick. i need rest.

i dont wish.

2010-06-28T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hello gorgeous people!

i got bored staring over th screen & its staring back at me, like always. so since i dont wanna sleep, im taking this precious chance to update. i had tiring practice during cca for upcoming arts nyte. cikgu petpot for nt concentrating on my studies. & im putting more effort on cca. so maybe i'll be kick out of th performance. nyahaha. fuck studies. i dont think i can balance anymore. today new term starts, principal is gonna give long lecture in th morning like usual. *heads on table. none of my homeworks are done. malay homework, is a must. but not sure if i got mood to do. okay, put tht aside. i lost my upper barbell. & tht is saaad. its colourful, like very & its lost alrdy. & now its replace with plastikkk blue tht b gave me. but im still saaaad, its sangaaat colourful. ohmy. *flap ears. williams, i wanna have a heart to heart talk with you but maybe i cant. cos i knw i'll cry for every single problems i'll share. how ah kontot? sigh. *smack forehead. bye, out of words. :/

i have alot of problems in my life tht i dont like talking about. im a complicated person & no one realises tht. people look at me & judge me but thts okay they dont knw me. i honestly feel alone in th world like no one understands me but i hope tht one day maybe, just maybe someone will. th world is a crude & horrible place we live in & im starting to realise tht now. im starting to realise who's gonna be there for me & who's not. meeting new people is making a difference in my life, for th better, hopefully. i see more & more people hurting me each day. from th things they say to th actions they take, they are breaking me down, slowly.

UNCERTAINTY.

is th biggest torture in love. you feel jealous yet you cant complain.

you get hurt yet you cant show it.
you can love with your all yet you cant say it.

all you can do is watch & enjoy th smiles. KEEP TH PAIN.

& show how much tht person means to you.

to [ insert bdk tw name ] ;

i dont wish you to smile over looking at his fb again.

admiring hym and start saying i think im liking hym.

kata top scorer in class. kata pmpan paling lawa dlm class.

kata takmau carik boy dulu. ish nak rampas lagy ?!

tk serikserik laaaaaaaa- *bang head on wall thrice.

it has never been good.

2010-06-23T11:08:00.000-07:00

why shud you take me as your child in th first place ?!
follow your luck mum. go throw me to pertapis.
i've always been th burden for you.
cos what you see from me im very baaad.
do what makes you happy mum.
throw me sell me kill me mum.
:'(

bored.

2010-06-10T12:52:00.000-07:00

kaaaaaaaaay, im getting bored. D:

im sorry if i've interfered anyone of you. cos no one is entertaining me ! gaaaahhh.

currently otp with lembab. will be meeting lembab and azeeq sooon. <3

hurrraaaaaaaayyyyy ! lembab is singing otp right now. hah.

anyone entertain me ? dun make me post th third one for today. zzzz -____-

ahoyyah.

2010-06-10T09:11:00.000-07:00

Hello. Just got back home met b just now bfore he really went off for his camp. I got two M lights and three winner with me right now. Yeay me \m/ . I saw ismail when was otw home in th bus. I have to be in school by this time for this conduct upgrading thing. Fatin texted asking where am i right now im still stuck with this comp. Haha, qeelia juga. Kesian ah krg, wait for me hor. Later after this shyt thing, will be going for soccer camp at ecp with iqa. Gonna ton tonyte ! Im still wondering if i still have to go to school tmr. Big sigh. I hate me today. :/ Aku pokai ! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~

Pufukifimakfak.

2010-06-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

I got nowhere to let out how i feel for this particular one day. And i knw every single thing tht happened started from me. I knw i was up to my ego. Bcos i wanna stand on my own even th path im going to means th other way round. And look, i got life tht no one can instruct me to lead ways. I knw you want th best for me, but understand me first can ? You seem to put more burden on me. I cant stand every single thing tht you asked and told. You like stalking me yknw. I knw you care but i also knw my limit. I can take care of myself. I not baby alrdy. I knw what im doing right now whether its bad or good. But please, dun take me like as if i got small kid's brain can ? I want freedom also lah. This one like you putting more pressure on me plus my mum's. I also want live like others. Born with supportive mum. Have mum tht doesnt compare. Now you like one of her. Can live one house, one gang ah.

And right now, i feel regretted for not attending maths consultation today. I knw i made th wrong decision. I dun want talk this much. Cos for i knw there's surely unhappiness. And for i knw this may brings me down to everything. Can someone like put yourselves in my shoes like tht ? I cannot tahan lah when someone is not happy with me just bcos they do not understand what im going through. And when some people get tease abt small things, they may tend to be sensitive. Some people may think teasing people is a justforlaugh thing and they do not even knw how others feel abt th teasing. People like tht just got no warm feelings for others. This is just some people who wants to be proud cos they entertain th public. Good enough ?

For th mean time, farhan is not in a good mood bcos someone commented abt hym being with me bcos of whaaat only. Okay, this is humiliating. And i hate it when i dun want mention names here. But if not, till when to keep this hard feelings ? Eh enough lah. I told you i wanna stand up on my own. But not like this man. Everywhere i step into you wanna knw. When can you stop to be like this ? And to some people out there yang terase, understand how others feel can ? Put yourselves in people's shoes also can ? I wanna end everything in comfortable ways but i dun knw how to. I wanna text those tht i disappoints them today but i have no guts at all bcos im wrong. And people will go blaming me for everything. Im so definitely useless.

Bye, dun go ask and text if im okay.

Aku selalu okay.

heeeyyyyyy .

2010-06-05T11:08:00.000-07:00

050610.

Sweet morning everbody. I've just got up from bed and since mum is not at home so im taking this opportunity to blog. Gaaaaah. Mum called to get ready quick but im still not ready steady yeah. I've got no time to spread out more stories down here cos running out of time. I wanna hate tht gerl, very much. And tht gerl and you also. Haha. Tht first gerl. Haha, i dun knw what to say alrdy ah. Da la mcm aeroplane, nk buat fitnah lagy. Tskkkk, budak nihh. Tht second gerl and her guy. Tsk tsk tsk. Parents never teach them manners. Talk behind people's back. Kwang kwang kwang. Th last one. Haiyoooh, lagy manyak susa la. Tk suke org nk buat muke. Alamak, zaman bila skrg nihh budak budak buat hal mcm gyni. Buat bodek btol la. Da la, sapa sapa terase maaf la. Krg punye pasal la tu. Bye, off getting ready.

hi b, happy belated one year. :D

030610. <3

ily.

mtp 2010 sucks.

2010-05-27T15:26:00.000-07:00

MTP.

Met principal just now as i received pink form. Mum didnt managed to meet principal in th morning so time was dragged till nearly th afternoon. Waited for mum like two hours and i got fuckedup so i scolded mum on th phone like hell k. Mum cried talking to principal abt me. How bad i do D: I got Ugrade for four subjects. After meeting principal we met mdm shah. Mum cried talking abt me again. Talking abt my attitude and whatever. I got pissed, in order not to cry i smiled all th way to mdm shah. Right after my mum jotos my head i cried, badly. I cried uncontrollably. You just dun knw how it feels like. Sume OIAI dpt white form except me. Mdm shah ended th talk and i was still crying like nobody's business. I walked off showing my attitude. Mum sound as if im rude and its th fact la. So, i walked to mdm shah and salam her. And there it goes, mdm shah hugged me from th side and tried so hard to comfort me while walking. I cried so hard tht mdm shah cried too. I can knw she understand th burden in me. She told me she love me and so i cried veryvery hard again. Im so ashamed i cried in front of a teacher tht i nvr did bfore. I cried th way like how i cry everytime i did inside my room, feeling pressurized. Now, i got no face anymore to come to school. But mdm shah have hopes on me. She wanted me to move on to 5N. So i decided to cancel off what i've posted previously cos i knw i want to move on too. And im so totally pissed off with mum. Sigh.

its been three days i've been enduring this pain. for those texts i read. for th way you act like nothing happened. i think i had this enough alrdy. i've make up my mind, fully. i hope this is gonna be my final decision. i wanna smile over everything again, but not with you. dun love me cos you're gonna play arnd with it. and stop saying you only love me cos right now you dun seem to. thanks for your always-be-there for me. thanks for your listening ear. thanks for your company. thanks for your advice. thanks for everything. bye sweet memories, cos we're just gonna be normal like others.

i dun wanna be a brokenhearted gerl, again and again.

help me forget abt th past.

help me forget abt us.

:'(

hati yang kau sakiti.

2010-05-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

tell me why ?

Help me with this guys. I've been thinking so fucking hard abt this lame thing, sucha bs. I really cant solve this thing out, seriously. But i cant say out here. There's also no point of me saying all this stoopid lameshyt thots. I knw i do feel like letting go of everything. But im also aware i cant afford of losing. Right now, my mind is full of different mindset i had abt this particular person. uhm, philanderer ? huh, come on. I dun want to ruin any relationships or friendship or whatever ship you have with her la. I dun want cry abt this alrdy, please la. I knw i dun wanna let go but it seems like im forced to. I believe if i make such decisions things will be worse for me. But if i dun, things will be more worse for others. Fuck it okay. Go do whaaat makes you happy la. Go slack with anyone you want. And when i dun talk to you, dun ask me why. Tsk, i hate this th most. I hate to feel th hurt. I hate what you did! But i know.. i cant afford to lose :'(

insertatitle.

2010-05-22T21:46:00.000-07:00

~~Say bye to 5N.~~

~~Say hi to Macpherson ITE.~~

Ha, i've made it simple for today's post. Hi and Bye for now. I got no mood. Most importantly, im sorry I and Z. You shud know who you are cos im th knife to th apple being cut. Im sorry for th so called ruining everything, your relationships. I believe myself, i got no idea what have been happening dis days. I got no innocent face. Ha, bye.

its written all over my face,

i cant function th same when you're not here.

im calling your name and no one's there,

and i hope one day you'll see

nobody has it easy.

Adam, let's make things clear okay. I really miss everything bt i just cant seem to shake th pain.

Dont do this to me.

i dun wish to cry no more.

2010-05-11T21:06:00.000-07:00

Saturday's Study Group.

justforlaughs.

I started my saturday with tuition then met gfs for study group. Pictures above describe some parts on what we did aft studying. More pictures in ajoya's FB. So well, i cn only tell what i cn roughly remember what happened on tht day. Specifically, OIAI ended on th day itself due to some conflicts we had. What i cn only say is tht i dun have any grudges on you, gerl. I just had it enough. You are just egoist. You think for your own good and i guess OIAI dun deserve to move on bcos we have no hope. Sume buat hal sendiri. Macam kacang lupekan kulit. Its our last year sey. Yaa i knw you dun graduate with hym, thts for confirm. Bt hey, think abt us too. What we did like last time, how we use to hang arnd and balance things well with our relationships. Things change so fast huh. Like we are force to forget people arnd us and do what is for ourselves. Even if OIAI deserves to move on, things like dis will happen again. Babes, what and how we are right now, is totally different from last time. I miss you guys. I miss our happy memories together. I miss everything about your personalities. I even miss my ownself. OIAI, i miss you. I cant believe im crying for this. But i did bcos i've simply lost my beloved gfs tht i wish our friendship could last...

i dun wish to take five sticks tht day. D:

im so addicted.

Today

Today's paper was easy. Ended at 9 and settled things aft tht. I had quadrangle floor talk with OIAI and some other frens. Things isnt clear yet. So its yet to be settled. Haha. Went out of school with fatin and frens, makan puff. I took three sticks today. Then went to Ikh's house with ajoya, had karaoke session. Went back home at 3. Im so tired right now. My art is nt done yet. Art paper is tomorrow. D: i think im nt sleeping tonight. Wish me luck.

What im feeling, right now, at this time...

Let me tell you this kay.. aft accompanying my fren i go home straight away.. i did tht bcos i want to let you feel how its like biler diri tidak dilayan.. i knw im nt anyone to you.. i cn only love, care for you.. bt i cant force you to love, care for me also.. i cant be jealous too cos there's no point.. what's th use if there's only one sided love.. aft all this while, have you ever knw what im feeling? have your mind ever came across what im gonna feel when you do this..

Okay, i cried aft reading this everytime.. Sadly, im crying too now. Adam, i miss you. But it cant help. Im scared i would fall in love thts why im acting this way towards you.. You dun seem to care anymore aft i've changed alot. I miss GHT with you. I miss th laughters and jokes we had. Why am i like this ? Haish. I knw im nt appreciative towards you aft all th things you did to me. Now what i did to you ? I hate myself !

God, give me ego too. :'(

All seniors hating you, bitch.

2010-04-18T14:10:00.000-07:00

A twister of twist once twisted a twist;

A twist he twisted was a three-twisted twist;

If in twisting a twist one twist should untwist,

The untwisted twist would untwist the twist.

Hahaa, read it faaasstt.

Hola faggarts. Im baaack with muchmuch stories to tell. Maybe some of you knw what have been happening lately. Ahhh, i think im hating dis new generation. I hate S_____H alrdy and i think im gonna hatee S_____A. First thing first, if you knw im refering to you, just bear with it cos i think i had enough of take it easy with you, okay. Firstly, i dun mind having you as my favourite junior for starting bt i think your tactic to steal hym away from me is illegal. Secondly, i dun mind about tht facebook thing and i dun even give a damn about it bt i think you knw how to remove it kaaan and surprisingly you didnt which i think you purposely did it ah. Thirdly, i dun mind you texting along with hym bt i dun think so there's a need for you to reflect about your past with hym. Fourthly, i think i dun give a damn tht you have th urge to meet hym pesonally bt i think i care so much tht you have to meet hym in th morning bfore sch and pass things and meet again aft sch and return it back. I guess its nt impt for a slut like you to do such things ahhkay. Last bt nt least, i guess you really have to buckup and go find new one. When i show my temper to you, i dun think there's a need for you to complain to hym. If you think you have to stop messaging hym, do it with faithful heart okay. There's no need for you to tell hym tht im angry towards you huh. Tht is called complaining kaaan bitch. Kay i think im done explaining things which i hate to do bt i did it laah. Uhhh. If i've confronted you, i think tht shows how much i hated you, perampas mataer orang. (: okay, im happy labelling her tht way.

Bestfren, i told ya she still like you. Dun deny ohkaaay. :D

Well well, gtg meeting mummy and daddy. (:

fuckher

2010-04-08T13:38:00.000-07:00

i cried big time last night. :'(
its totally pathetic to keep controlling your feelings.
jiwe busy with boyf. bestfren busy with probs.
and its freaggy knnccb tht i dun have anyone to talk to.
i dun wanna share anything to soulmate.
i texted NW last night and let everything out.
i sucks for almost hurting myself.
soulmate, dun keep asking me why and what.
just pretend im perfectly okay.
cos i dun think it make a difference telling you everything.
im hurt and forever will be.
will anyone give me your shoulder to cry on ?
im gonna cry my fucking ass out, kick here and there and shout out loud.
anyone... :'( im damn hurt.

Boohoo .

2010-04-04T14:07:00.000-07:00

Taadaaa !

Back from MIA. I just realise im sooooooooo outdated huh. Just had a small arguments with shahid on fb. Nyahahas. Ehem, nice photo you took with her kan kawan ? Heart painpain. Ape peduli. Cis, gtg. No mood blogging. Nothing to blog abt also. Adeq, cheer up and dun make kak disappointed also eh. Kak have hopes on you. Chill yo. Okay gtg. By faggarts.

Frenemy.

2010-03-21T15:54:00.000-07:00

Hey Hunks and Babes.

Its been like for ten days my blog berkarat. Wanna blog also got no mood. And i've always have dis so fcking many stories to share with bt whyyy th hell am i keep forgetting it i also dun knw why. Oh, bare with me. Yesterday, went to kak ain's bday party and was late. Izyan, sabby and kak atikah went off aft i came. Bubble sia. Went home arnd seven with ain, kak syahirah and kak suliana ? Idk how to spell. Had a great chat with them talking abt nlevels. Fuhh, my semangat nk blaja tros naek. Their advice mantaaaaaaaap ahh. And i cried at night i think bcos of stress. I've also been ignoring some msgs. I have been feeling very tired dis days. Please, to whoever i never reply th texts leave me alone k. I think my mindset gonna burst. Feel like crying yknw typing all dis shyts. Huhhh. Today dragged myself to madrasah. Everyweek lateee. Now blogging, watching anak adam and cuzzies at home. Homeworks not done yet. Ohmy. Guess whaaat ?

SHE IS MY FRENEMY .

Let me tell you guys something openly here okay, indirectly hor. Example, you save up very hard to buy dis beautiful blue dress tht you've been eyeing for th longest time. You proudly wear it on your next shopping trip to town with your best gf, hoping tht she notices it, and she does. She makes dis cooing sound and proclaims tht it looks gorgeous. Th next weekend you planned of meeting her again and surprisingly she turns up wearing a blue dress but a better one. You feel unexplainably angry and frustrated. Dis goes to me. Last time, she says one day th whole school will wear ______ th same as mine. But end up, she bought tht thing. Then one day, i went to dis special occassion with dis cool hairstyle. When i met her th next time, she did th same thing. Same goes in school days. Then i one day she proclaims my handwriting very nice and guess whaaat, she end up being th same fcking hilarious bitch's attitude ever. Ey gerl ada originality tak ? Just be yourself cn ? Kalau kau terase kau punya pasal laah !

Fuckest Fuckeria Fuckerette.

2010-03-11T23:09:00.000-08:00

Wassup Sab Sab Sab Sab !

Hey fuckerettos. It's been long since i've blogged. Yeayness huh ? I've got so manymany stories and yet i keep forgetting it. Shud be reflecting every single thing on a diary yeah ? Haha. Kaaay stop it, like mdm tang sia. Todaaaaaay very pathetically boring. Had dancework practice just now. And oh-oh someone made me pissed off. Excuse me yeaaahhh ;

Okaay ehem ehem.

Pukimak pey sundal ! Mak bpk cikgu tk ajar per sial !

Da terangterang org tgh pkai studio ada practice kn !

Tk yah nk tgk tgk per ! Nk cheat tgk dance steps org ?

Wa tau laah lu tlg drg, tp tkmu step big uhh !

Wa meluat uh tgk lu gyni macam !

Makin hari eh wa tgk lu makin world !

Nurianni da bagy signal per suro belah, tp keras kpale !

Naseb wa tk kuar carik gado eh. Big fuck per !

A big satisfaction ? Neahh. I've yet to confront her. Big deal ey. Big fuck. She is totally no any other than a copycat, who has no originality, who loves to attract people's attention and gives big fuck to people's attitude. Come on ahhh, grow ! Grow-grow-grow ! Hidop mana mau jalan kalau perangai gyni mcm bdk kecik. Taik kerbau kaaaaaaan. Great uh letting some of my anger out. Fanatic whaaaaaaaat me. Back to today's topic, i went home straight and didnt attend cheerleading practice. Sorryyy Neh. Bestfren accompanied home. Thaaaaanks kaay. Nurianni, tkmu cry lagy. Kite sume sorry didnt put out all th best in us. Kita awak happy, awak kite happy kaay ? Hahaha gyler jugak kawan fatin nihh. Kaay uh, i to th g to th t to th g. I gotta go fuckerettos. Keep th tagboard alive ! :D

stupid call stupid .

2010-02-24T01:34:00.000-08:00

Ahoyyahh Readers !

Like finally. Aiyah, make it quick okay. Im updating just abt those 'interesting' days horr. Lack of time alrdy. See, 1am. Fantastic. Last saturday, had performance at pasir ris. Im nt included. Okaaaay la th dance. Teacher dont like. Nt satisfied. Sucha disatisfaction. Kay stop it ah. What i cn see is only nurianni, syuhada and syahindah tht put in effort plus norish and plus sabrina. Haaaah, mepek shey aqqquu.

Well, basically what happened ystrdy is tht i cabot remedial. Was otw to soccer tournament venue but end up lost. End up at hong kah lamer. Mak kau, bodo sey. Haha. Then stupid us terpakse la lepak makan mac bwh blok. Free show bangla tengok kan. Around five went back to sch meet bestfriend and go home together. Wont elaborate mre. Okay done.

TODAY.

Late. Tht bangla text again. Mak kau. B u punye pasal nihh. English lesson draaaaaaaaaaaaaggg, ngantok nk mampos. Had cip leader meeting. Had cca. Failed going home with bestfriend. Sedih. Done.

Overall : Bloken Engrish.

sigh.

2010-02-17T23:57:00.000-08:00

Penaaaaaaaat naaa update blog sayang.

Tu pun tak menjadi nk blog dier.

Haaah, update proper soon.

Soon soon soon ahkay.

Bebual pun tak btol.

Sigh.

it was what i meant .

2010-02-13T19:10:00.000-08:00

Heyyyyy Hiieee.

Oh i miss tht skirt of mine. *sobs. Haaah let's get started. Yesterday end up a disastrous for me. I knew i had a bad luck for tht day and indeed it turned out miserable. Planned of watching movies with tersayangs in due of Valentine's Day. But in th end only two couples made it. Baybee went off with friends. And i did felt hurt for your harsh words, FAZLI. I knw i was alone for th mean time, doesnt mean i cant watch movie also kan. On th spot, cried silently. And i had made a decision to go home and off i went. But th main thing tht blow my head off is tht i have to 'patah balek' meet baybee and spent th half an hour waiting for hym. I cooled down myself and kept thinking shud i go for my prac. I went back home at 4 and rushed to prac. I end up late, too late tht th prac had ended. Then went home at 6.30.

Hey, i knew right then.

Tkmu buat orang benci ah eh.

Kalau masih suke cakap masih suke.

Tkmu pandang orang gytu macam ah.

I felt it was you at first but feeling isn't right.

But i got to find out it was you, bimbo.

Jangan sampai wa bobal open pat sini.

Kau sentuh dia kau kene. Aku da benci kau, sesangat.

Ah bgos, dua dua budaks baru naeks.

Gy carik jantan laen daaaa. Sibot.

i hate you, S. sangatsangat.

2010-02-07T17:52:00.000-08:00

Hey hunks. Hey Babes.

Yesterday's schedule was tight. Chey mcm paham. Had tuisyen and this time fatin was late. As usual saturday sucks big time cos tuisyen nye boring. Then, i met baby for funfun and went off to practice after tht. After practice hang arnd with sabby and ain. We got so itchy due to th grass. So sabby's fault here. Haha. Todaayy was a draaaaaaaaggg. I don't favour going religious class lagy ehhh. Mum instruct me to go her fren's house aft tht. So i walked from bangkit to senja. I end up with two blisters on my ankle. How fantastic was tht. And went straight back home.

Yesterday, i got to knw something i have been waiting for. So here it goes ehhh. Totally freaked out, you bitch whom i don't have any eye on you, didn't realise you are liking hym ? I guess so laa. I don't have any prove yet. But yknw what, budaks baru naeks mcm you better knw his background first kay. No wonder when he passed by during our practice you turned hyperactive. Cb lah kau. Hey, you may nt knw who you are, or who am i refering to but you're a slut okay. Just see how i react to you during cca and how i will stare at you. I hate you, S. The End.

Happy 8th mthsary to baybee. loves

2010-02-03T20:32:00.000-08:00

Tonight Is A Special Night

For Both Of Us
You Comfort Me When Im In Fright
Its Was Such A Lust
Everyday I Wished
To Be With You Forever
That Day We Went To Fish
Caught A Real Pounder
Now That We've Been Together
Hoping For More To Come
My Heart Grows Fonder
As You Didnt Message Me Prompt
I Was Scared Of Losing You
As You Are My Activity
You Are My Only Boo

HAPPY 8TH MTHSARY BAYBEE !!! (:
harapharap last long. sayangsayangsayang you kay.

whateveryoulikehere .

2010-01-31T21:26:00.000-08:00

Wassupp Butches.

Just edited th skins and it took long yknw. Tk perfect pun. Im still nt happy with it. Nyahahas :D Okay, ystdy went out practicing with smdc peopos. And just as i thot, forgot to take pictures of them. Haiyaaaa' Was funfunfun ! Next time shud go out again yeah. Today went religious class. Thot of skipping bt yknw i very goodgood one tawuuu. So indeed nt. I still cn reflect back abt last week's incidence where i lost my nike slipper in religious class. Nw tell me how shud i react ? Stupid theft. I swear hardly tht person won't live in peace. I told dis to bestfren and guess what she say ? `Yekeleh, tu jer ? Ku pk aper. Some sort like tht.

Now tell me who would just understand my feelings. I barely cried for th lost of my nike slippers. And her reaction was tht. Sucha big disatisfaction. I need someone who cn understands me. Who cn share time to listen to how i feels. I cn hardly pay attention to class yknw. Cos i knw when i share, no one listens. No one would understand... Haaah, okay jiwang laa plak. Mum have been nagging. So... see ya readers. Keep th tagboard alive ! :D

disappointed .

2010-01-26T22:36:00.000-08:00

I find it difficult to concentrate.

See, people blaming me on changes.

Now tell me what's wrong ?

Only fatin understands me.

That's why she says there's no any changes.

Hey listen, im trying to smile okay.

Trying to overcome every prob i had.

Trying to let go of what you've said.

It's you who are nt close to me.

It's you who don't even bother to care abt me.

You just spit out things i guess it won't suppose to be me.

You just look me thru my outer okay.

Don't expect me to change in a dash like that okay.

Shyts, come on...

Grow up !

Will do a proper post. Nt in a good mood. Thanks fatin who always cheer me up with her stupid cb jokes. Haaah.

ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM !

Fatin .

2010-01-15T10:21:00.000-08:00

Fatin Farrell . Gorgeous enough ?

She told me to post abt her so tada ! Eh, mepek eh fatin. Kau suro aku post pasal kau tapi tk post pasal aku ? Sikit sikit cukup eh. Kau bace ni post tag aku.

Full Name : Nurul Fatin ajeeee...

Birthdate : 4th September.

Besterestkwn : HaniFanatic. *keningnaeknaek

Okaaay, gtg. Fatin puas ? Will be having cca later. *winks. I like. Soooo eagerrrrr.

SyaSyaSyaSyaSya .

2010-01-14T13:34:00.000-08:00

Heyyahh Earth Readers !

Currently having art lesson and taking th advantage to blog. Nyahahas :D Im taking dis special opportunity to describe who is she *picture above as she did. So her name is Syahindah. Pretty kan kan kan ? She's my junior as well as my adq angkat nyeehh. So, i guess till here as im out of words. Haha. Ni pun senyap2 pkai. *smilesmile. Kaaay, gtg. Buhbye.

*Idk what's up with you baby. Im so heartless D:

back .

2010-01-10T20:28:00.000-08:00

Boomchika !

Surprisingly im back kiddos. Yeah, its twenty ten and a new chapter has begun. Indeed, a new problem had started too. *winks. Haaah, i find myself eager on th first day of sch in search of a sec1 gerl. I found her when sch ended. Well, she's quite pretty to me. And she is someone related to farhan too. So, my first thots on her was, what th hell and so on. There's reason behind it lah. Bt i found her nice and friendly. Mark tht. Im indeed close to her nw. She's nice to talk to nyeehh. (:

Okay, dis week was a lethargic one. With sec1 recruitment going on. Bt i find it okay laaaaaaa. First week got hwk alrdy. And seriously fuck, im nt ready for twenty ten. Taking N's somemre. Bt life must move on kan ? Okay wish me luck. I gotta go. And won't be updating seriously. Tolong buat tagboard tu alive. (: Loves.

IdunKnwWhatToWrite.

2009-12-16T11:24:00.000-08:00

Bonjour Readers !

Im super bored right now. So im spending dis time to update. Cos i guess i won't be really updating like i always do aft today nyeehh. Sis will be back home soon frm langkawi. I want to learn hip hop, anyone ? Teach me ? Hahaha. Iqa watching cinema today. I was invited too. Hees, bt rejected. Pokai uhh. Later on will be meeting her giving those things and maybe go jalanjalan. Tmr i got no plan except taking back my confiscated phne. Aft tht ? Anyone wanna go out with me ? Contact me thru phne nyeehh. Lol. I dun wanna stuck at home. Tmr baby sexy and all celebrating baby choco's bday i guess lah. Then who wanna go out with me ?! Aiya Aiya, anyone ? Okayokay, will be MIA again aft today. Just a maybe. See ya, need to get ready. Bye.

No Title .

2009-12-15T14:29:00.000-08:00

Hello Sunshine !

Just came back frm counselling session. And i swear i dun want attend any of it alrdy. I barely wanted to cry bt i just did lah. Okay, i miss fatin. Haha, so random. Currently chatting with baby sexy and watching hip hop videos. Short post. Kay ah, bye uh bye.

SuppSupp.

2009-12-14T13:43:00.000-08:00

Mangat people !

Like finally im back to blogging. Fuuhh, no surprise. Okay, let me sum up what had been happening lately dis days.

Saturday.

Went to petir wif mum and small sista in due watched another sis played futsal. Ended arnd 6.30pm. Went to plaza then. Window-shopped. Ate mac. Home-d.

Sunday.

Went mosque wif mum and sistas early in th morning had something going on, idk what. Then off to jemputan. And then to gombak market. Then to granny's hse. Slept. Home-d. Met iqa at sheng shiong and i swear i won't elaborate on it. I didn't do anything. Sumpah, my bag da haram. Sykes. :D

Monday.

Today accompanied sis buy books. Home-d. And now taking th opportunity to update since dis blog sungguh berkarat. Nyahs. (: Later going woodlands, waiting for mum. Ohkaaay, im done.

I dun knw whether to still cope wif you.

I dun understand what you want actually.

I dun get it why u did all dis.

You've changed as if nothing really happened.

I've lost all th love i used to get frm you.

Now my heart is half filled.

I miss th old you.

*tears rolling down*

hello there.

2009-12-12T10:12:00.000-08:00

Will update sooooon ahh~

Fuck.
I SCARED CNT USE TH COMP ALRDY !
ShytShytShyt.

dusty blog.

2009-12-10T05:44:00.000-08:00

Heyheyhey.
Baby sexy here ! Helping Sis sachek to update her dusty blog.
Sis Sachek had beeen busy these days and had no time updating.
SO yeahhh , nothing much to write about.

Gooood luck fr your "N" Levels , sis Sachek.
andandand lastlong with farhan . ;D

withloveeeee,
Babysexxxyyyy .

XOXO .

I'm Back .

2009-11-16T13:56:00.000-08:00

Boo ! I'm back.

Had a super duper tiring weekends helping aunt at changi. Thot of resting bt damn, i must edit on those smdc poster. Oh well, on th go yeah. Saturday was a lethargic day instead of sunday. Saturday, end up helping aunt till 1am. Reached her hse and boom had shower, ate and slept at 4am plus. Sunday, woke up at 5.30am. Rushed to changi and there it goes again. Helped and helped. I got bad eye bags, seriously man. Turned sleepy while helping and i got scolded for daydreaming. Went home at 12 plus.

I slept thru out my journey home in th mrt for 1hr. When i woke up, my eyes seems reddish. Took bus and reached home at 2. Jumped off to bed and sleep. Woke up at 11pm plus. Watched tv and sleep again. Now blogging. I have news for you guys. Aunt giving me offer to stay along with her. And i cn get what i want bt in one condition tht i must study hard. I'll be th only child (: If i agree i must change sch to st hilda's. Haaah, living in tampines. And th sad thing is i can't hang arnd wif you guys again. Will be lost in contact ehhh. Bt i haven decide yet. Need some opinions here ?

If i agree, i won't be going mendaki tuisyen ah fatin. Haha.

Okay, im off to editing posters (: Loves.

Oh ?

2009-11-13T20:52:00.000-08:00

Heyyahh humans !

Just now's cca was fucking damn lol with isha. Hah.

I'm arguing with b again ): Very lmao irritating. Smoke-.-"

Okay, i can't use comp tht long and i won't be updating much.

Will be away tmr saturday and sunday. Still in singapore ehhh. Nyook.

So i can't entetain u guys with my 'interesting' everyday post for th mean time.

Keep th tagboard alive people (:

Fucking Pissed Like Shits .

2009-11-11T22:53:00.000-08:00

FatinRezza.

Dis picture was taken ytd. Cute kn drg ? Hah.

Hellooooo sexysexysexysexysexy readers (:

I missed three days of bridging programme nt including last week's. Im sure my conduct will be very bad. I have dis lazy-like-feelings of going sch on HOLIDAYS. Im looking forward for tmr. Whether or nt i still have to come for sch eventho i woke up late. Okay, basically i woke up at 12 today. Had shower and ate. On comp edited skins. Like shits. Then mum called told me to accompany her to bpp. Aku tgh feeling edit skin potong steam ah. I was pissed off then. Reached bpp, cnt find mum. Called and called like cb. Bt nvr answer. I got really pissed. Lastly, she called back said she was at th PC ZONE shop bt when i reached she went missing. And i got too pissed off like cb pussy licking bad. I called and she answered saying she was at th JAMU shop. And there was when i got totally fuckedup.

Accompanied mum window shopping. Shockingly, she gave me 20 bucks. At th time, i feel very guilty at scolding words like fuck. A total guilt tht i turn nice towards mum at helping her carrying things. Hahaha. Okay, tht was lame. During th window shop, i saw dis particular shop selling curler. Asked for th price bt mum distract by shouting like cb. Saying no and don't. I got pissed off again. Then went ntuc and homed. Haaaah, now blogging and chatting. Im in total bored dun knw what to do. Right now now now.

Anyways, i encounter another problem today. Pity her laa. I don't think there is a need for me to mention who. From th start till now. Well, need to accompany her dis coming friday. Early in th morning to settle it. Hoping it'll nt end th way i dun wish it to be. Okaaay, i guess im done. Nights sexysexysexysexysexy readers (:

hey

2009-11-09T22:18:00.000-08:00

th skin sucks sup sui .

no time to edit liao .

brain crack nek . lmao .

wednesday keh(:

pfft.

2009-11-08T22:39:00.000-08:00

tiredtiredtired of trying dis new things on dis skiiiinnnss .

will update soon laa okay .

blablabla .

2009-10-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

Dis is what happened yesterday.

Met haziq, tam and iqa.

Haziq. Tam. Iqa. Hani.

(2nd child) (Daddy) (Mummy) (1st child)

eh, 1st child look taller than mummy.

I kinda have short term memory so i dun pretty rmbr abt yesterday.

Th only thing tht is locked in my mind is tht haziq farted two times.

Today. Went esplanade wif dancers.

We had two performances bt i didnt take any pic at the second performance indeed its boring.

So it ended at 9 roughly. Went arnd esplanade and in th end took photos wif ghosts.

Nguahh nguahh nguahh. HALLOWEEEEENNNN !

Otw home, we got nothing better to do so did some snap.

And disturbed people too.

There's more photos in syu's and izyan's camera.

Interesting ones i guess. Upload cepat deh, okay.

I guess i'll end dis here right now.

Im too tired of walking, laughing and taking photos wif ghosts.

Bleahh, bye. Nights hunks and babes(:

You shud yell out for today .

2009-10-27T22:14:00.000-07:00

Much misses Fareez & Naz D:

Hello hunks & babes (:

I had soooo many moods today. Nyahahas :D Purposely late to sch met Fatin sume. Today's activity in class is boring banget. Had tht business games thingy held bt it went gerek wif Fatin and Farezd. Aftwards had debating. Hate to elaborate cos i fall asleep for th last period. I received blue form somehow today. And tht means my results is being sucha kanasai. Bt THANK GOD im promoted. Those who were damn worried are now happy gila especially Fatin. Bt i cried cos idk why ? Hahaha. Aft sch met Azura and let it all out. Had planned of meeting Sabby aft sch bt i guess she went wif her guy ? So instead i met Fatin and her members.

Fiza was there. It is like for long i've nvr seen her. Aft slacking much, more came and th place bcame crowded. Especially Vishnu, datang buat bising daaa. Bt he is somehow a joker. His jokes nt bad ahh. Then, time killed most of them went home and do own stuff. Idk. Left wif me and Fiza. Fatin plak menghilang ntah kemane, bebual laa tu dgn Rezza. So chatted wif Fiza and had a great time wif her. Yknw what, Fiza cn somehow be ur listener. Haha, gerek laa dier. And i learn something abt relationship frm her. And frm tht moment i realise something is much more better than you think. Haaaaa.

Went back to sch for cca aft tht. Done, met bitches under a block and played card games. Soon, met bby and we went home. Since long, i miss bby so much. Bt we did nothing specifically. Okaaaaaaayy, i guess im done. Msh rindu laaa )':

)':

2009-10-26T17:49:00.000-07:00

" Sejak engkau pergi dari hidupku,

ku merasa sepi.

Kau tinggalkan ku sendiri disini,

tanpa satu yang pasti.

Aku tak tahu harus bagaimana,

aku merasa tiada berkawan.

Selain dirimu,

selain cintamu..

Entah mengapa hatiku terus gelisah,

apa yang akan terjadi.

Airmata pun jatuh tak tertahan,

melihatmu terdiam.

Mungkin Tuhan tak izinkan sekarang,

Kau dan Aku bahagia..

Saat aku tertawa di atas semua.

Saat aku menangisi kesedihanku.

Aku ingin engkau selalu ada.

AKU INGIN ENGKAU AKU KENAL.

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas,

masih sanggup berjalan.

Aku akan selalu memujamu.

Meski ku tak tahu lagy,

engkau ada di mana.

Dengarkan aku,

Kumerindukanmu.."

:'(

)':

2009-10-25T21:20:00.000-07:00

I have to hold on my tears everyday & night.
Thinking abt every single things tht happen thru out.
How to solve, how to overcome.
Im sure nt even a single person wud understand.
Cos all they say is just a challenge we have to go thru.
I've been wondering when will it end.
I miss th old EVERYTHING.
If i could just make a decision, i prefer nt to exist.
Cos living cause more burdens.
And those burdens we have to go thru,
is really really hurt till no one wud just understand.
I want to be happy like those humans out there.
Where they always smile, laugh and giggle.
I had lose hope. So much.
I cant hold on any further.
Im just weak. I ain't strong enough.
Why wud God even made me..

)':

2009-10-24T20:15:00.000-07:00

I dun pretty enjoy what ppl enjoy dis days. Only my feelings knw. And i dun really enjoy ytd's trip to Science Centre. If you notice how my face looks like. My mood tends to turn down aft i get to knw how my results is. I found out im at risk. I had moodswings thru out ytd. Bt i managed to cover everything. I laughed, smiled and made jokes to let others knw im okay. I've been hearing songs to entertain myself. And i get crazy at times to let my pain out. I tend nt to tell anyone what's really abt and what's bothering me. Im keeping everything to myself. Im nt gonna trouble any of you. Im staying happy. I wanna go to beach. I guess its a nice place indeed to release stress. I feel like crying right now.

I kinda miss (insertname). Hotbitch once asked why are we like dis. Are we okay. Why do we look as if we are separated. We dun seems to be close like last time. Yeah, i've been crying over tht thing too. Im in such a puzzled condition. Why are u like dis ? Or is it me ? We dun use to be like how we used to be like bfore. Im over-stressed right now. Im in need of a hug )': I wanna cry out loud. I miss (insertname). *tears rolling down* I cried ytd, saw hotbitch and her guy sitting together. )': (insertname), you seems different nowadays. You dun seems to entertain me like bfore )': Nk tk nk layan pun ada. Feel like giving up.

I have so much dreams to achieve. Bt yet, im so down below. Let me keep dis simple, i have no hope )':

PissedOff .

2009-10-22T21:00:00.000-07:00

I would like to start dis wif a grumpy face ):< hmph. Today, as planned, was late to sch wif lovelybitch, kiki and ilyas. Met up wif lovelybitch first near golf bustop as th others were extremely late. Waited for them under a block and played cards. Then, kiki reached for few mins later. And ilyas was later than tht. When ilyas reached, we decided to enter sch later. Kiki bought food. Meanwhile sat at th residents corner and played cards. Ilyas nk tipu tk agk agk. Hahs. Kiki makan tk ajak ajak. Huh. Nyahahas.

Went in sch at abt 8plus i guess. We walked separately, lovelybitch walked wif kiki while i walked wif ilyas. If nt, th security guard cnfrm suspect. Reached sch, went in class. In a total lost, i managed to get a group. And im nt happy wif it. What a business group whatsoever ? HATRED. Sorry, have to say dis in malay. Makin lamer makin benci dgn bdk class aku. Mcm sialan beh. Break at 1040. Went down wif lovelybitch and nisaaa. Went up again, had activity AGAIN. And im so nt loving it. Dun want elaborate much. Cos it sucks. Overall, my today's mood sucks and it really sucks.

Aft sch, met hotbitch and headed to SS. Drg sume pat sane. Then lazy to elaborate much cos i only get to see hym frm far. And had to go home at 3.30pm as i had an interview. Reached home, FUCKEDUP. Th interview was cancelled. And im so nt loving it AGAIN. Gaaaaaaaahhhhh. Now, onlined, Fs-ing and blogging. Sadly, have no mood to chat. Cos of dis fucking moodswings. If darian online, cnfrm da chat. cnfrm moodswings tros hilang. And again, sadly, dier tk online -.-' Haaaaaahhhhhh, i feel there's something's wrong bt im nt sure what or why. My heart is somehow sinking ? Somehow worried ? Mcm tk sedap hati uhh. What again ? Haiissshh.

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and nt to forget, to NURIN AMIRAH BTE ABDUL MALIK ;

HAPPY 15TH BDAY TO YOUU CUTEBITCH !

Wish you best luck of all.

May your hopes & dreams come true.

I miss youu going cambodia ):

Nyahahas. I Love Youu.

Stay strong, always smile (:

TheEnd.

Nights. Sweetdreams. Bye.

SoFunny SoFunny.

2009-10-20T21:40:00.000-07:00

look at how serious mimi is. mangat.

Well, today was absent from sch. Biase, bangun lmbt yer. Bt i met up wif OIAI bitches, farah and adeq aqillah. Had super so much fun playing wif them. Played cards -.-' Oh, nt to forget. A big much thanks to farah for treating us redbull drinks. Hahaha. And thanks to me for treating u guys ice ? LOLs, wth. Played bluff and what they called it 21 ? Ah whatever laa. Farah sucha joker to us. Wakaka. So funny so funny. Look at how her face is. So serious. U just cant imagine how gerek we was. Kecoh like apek pat kedai kopi. Aft tht all went home except for me and hotbitch. Hotbitch met her bby. And i was just accompanying her played lappy. At arnd six, we went home. And what happened aft tht, lazy to elaborate. Sumpah, penat gyler babi. Lari lagy lari. Gaaaaaaaahhh. In th end, reached home at 7plus. Onlined, Fs-ing, Blogging and chatting.

hahaha, bebual dgn kau sungguh kecoh and gerek.
gelakgelak. golekgolek. DK DK ... ( bkn dollah kasmat or drift king )
LOLs. kau sungguh pathetic. wahahaaa.
looking forward to next saturday ? uhm, agk nyer.
okay, we'll see.

ImpakMaksima !

2009-10-18T23:58:00.000-07:00

one of th fantastic four dancers. im gonna join one day :D haha.

my husband (: haha, mcm phm. DK ! :DDD

Had so much fun watching Impak Maksima. Fabulous eyy. Boo for those who did nt watch. Haha. Full of laughters and excitement. I wanna watch again. Sobsob. I miss DK ( Dollah Kasmat, Drift King ). LOLs. I wanna watch wif BF next time. Haha. Cos th scene is very ohsomygawdd touching. Th lights went off when th show started. And its freaking sweet kalau kuar dgn BF. Nyahahas (:

Aft th show, went toilet. Hotbitch's eyeliner thingy luh. Then out of th toilet, at th main floor, was crowded full of humans. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNGGGGG QUEUE ! And i was like, ohman. We should have gone queue-ing up first. And im damn pissed off didnt get those autograph ): Especially DK's one. So, just did some close up piccas and just smiled at them ): Saddening, i didnt get to take photo wif DK. Sucha waste of current.

Aft tht, hotbitch had to go home cos of her mom nagging. While me and sexybitch went to eat at Mac and off to window-shopping at Raffles. Sexybitch bought a pair of slipper from ESPRIT due to her blisters on her leg. Hmph, i still cn tahan tho cos im strong. Wahahaa :D Then we went off to WestMall and had our McCafe DCF at Mac while waiting for sexybitch's father to take her home. Meanwhile, had some talks. And ali was our main character for tht day. Haha, kopi dangdut yer ? IMAGINE ali shaking his butts. LOLs. Waited for 15mins for sexybitch's father. Malu nyer, her daddy sent me home too. Haha.

Done (:

TitleKauSendiri.

2009-10-15T22:20:00.000-07:00

i somehow enjoyed my day today.

had oral early in th morning. came late as usual.

did MT first then english.

was a troublesome for MT bt managed to get thru.

english sucks alot cos th teacher sucks. HAHA

aft oral, went hotbitch's hse and slacked.

bought breakfast at mac bfore went to her hse.

reached, watched titanic. lame.

i cried in th end of th story. u knw i knw hotbitch.

then played hotbitch's lappy.

then hotbitch fell asleep. i continued playing.

aft awhile, hotbitch woke up go toilet.

HAHA. then was awake thru out th day.

i went back home at five plus.

TheEnd.

and oh, i miss bby ): and im looking forward for tmr's activity .

hee. cant wait.

FunFunFun ! Yeay !

2009-10-14T21:24:00.000-07:00

ILoooovvveeeeTodaaaaaaayyy !

went out wif hotbitch and sadly sexybitch cant follow.

she's sick. get well soon ey.

u missed th fun ): bt still got sunday kaannn ? haha.

met hotbitch in th lot1 library. she's wif her bby.

by th time i reached, hotbitch's bby wanted to go home.

bt it seems like he didnt. he waste his time for awhile then ciao.

nyahahas. rounded and went eating.

bought mango pudding and was pronounced as 'padding'.

embarrassing. hotbitch laughed at me ): haha.

dasar quetek. LOLs. hotbitch bought honeydew sago then.

aft shivering like ice cube, we went funfair ^^ HAHA.

bought something there. hotbitch too.

aft tht, hotbitch met her bby again.

mcm sweet gytu kaaaaaann, jumpe dua kali.

see see. i jealous.

then hotbitch and me camwhore a little.

ugh, i look restless here (nt a seducing one).

hotbitch's one is seducing. mauuuuuuttttt !

HAHA. aft tht, hotbitch's bby went took his adeq.

then went home. meanwhile,

me and hotbitch went lovelybitch hse (luar tingkap jer).

then went home.

overall, a HAHAHA to my day :D

repeating th same thing again ):

2009-10-11T04:48:00.000-07:00

i wish i could turn back time.

where studies go first than lepak-ing wif bf and bff.

i should say, i regretted i didnt studied.

all written exams hancur pecah belah.

thinking back abt afiq's words,

im influenced ? or is dis th way i want to be ?

i knw, i changed alot.

especially my attitude, i turned to a bad one.

or rather th worse one ever ?

eh for goodness sake lah, i hate all dis things.

and guess what ? i've been thinking.

what if im retained.... ?

its sucha waste of time.

sister-sister confirm blow up like volcano.

i've nt been studying ):

and th sad thing is tht, i gave up on all th previous papers.

for chem and art, i have nothing to say.

overall, confirm kena retain ):

how lah how ?? )':

all over again ,

2009-10-04T23:58:00.000-07:00

Time check : Its 11.44pm here & my feet dragged me here
into cyberworld instead of my LalaLand. I must admit that
i've been wondering why life have to go on dis way. oh stupid,
i created another huge problems which i dun wish to -.-" yeah,
serena is satisfied wif it. dun you ? haaah, been fighting wif my
sister over small stupid problems. darnnn, i dun knw how to
study in dis way ? bitch, i think my eyes will get swollen each day.
who cares, right ? mate bole bengkak setiap hari.

i dun knw how to settle over dis problems. counsellor pon tkda
gune. confirm spread cite pat sume cikgu. i wish i could yell.
i cun sleep well. i wont tell bby abt dis. cos i dun want to trouble
hym much. i dun knw who to talk to then. i also dun want story telling
wif afiq anymore. i bet he cares more abt her. im all fucked up.
where's my frens all ? sume org da buat hal sendiri. jalan raya
pon tkda plan. i wanna cry out loud. very loud.

My face grew solemn and this is ever so gutwrenching.
Making me so upset over things i never expect would happened.
Yknw, sometimes you can't put high expectations on something
because it would just disappear in one click of your finger.
I dun knw how i shud react to things now & i really hope i could
wrap the wound up. I bet now everyone wish they could have a time
machine. To get the things they had done to be undone and to keep
whatever they had to themselves. Throw away the dirty little dirts ,
and burn mistakes into ashes.

i feel like leaving dis world bt first i wanna see bby and iqa.
then everyone wud be happy. right ? im all cried up nw.

th suckers day.

2009-09-29T21:38:00.000-07:00

its been long since i wanted to upload dis pics heh.

anypoos, today sucks a million.

cos i came late to sch and didnt meet bby.

and its like i didnt see hym for th whole day.

today's paper is exploding my brain out.

gaaahhh ~ stupid, i didnt study for ss ):

and i bet i will fail for it.

maths paper one went very smooth at first.

bt when it came to th last few qns,

i gave up. and shyt, i left two qns blank !

bodo lah me.

serena, i have to confess. stop wif your nonsense story. its so obvious you are just creating it. almost everyone hates and dislikes you. be a big gerl lah. wake up. i've heard many stories abt you alrdy. i knw lah u dun have frens. dun nid to create story and make everyone praise you. you are just too proud for your ego-ness. i can say you are nt matured yet. please lah, stop dis. stop blaming others where its your fault. stop being a small kid. you are sixteen alrdy. dun dare me make you hypervantilate. you geddit ? sibey kanasai.

uhmm ;;

2009-09-28T22:19:00.000-07:00

bila aku sudah tiada

click th above link to view. farish introduce me to tht song.
kinda sweet but saddening D:
i wont be seeing hym anymore aft dis year.
wish youu luck, farish. get promoted to ITE eyy.
im gonna miss youu DD:
dun forget me. hoho (:
im gonna post abt you every single time i update aites.
i try to kays (: ly.

i got my phone back at last, like fuck.
bt my battery was down ): stupid yoong, i swear.
life have been very busy.
exams, relationships, unsettled problems & idk ?
not done. mindset full of letters everywhere.
ahhhh~ yoong is gonna confiscate my skirt. nooob !

will nt really be updating. sial lahh.

lalala ~

2009-09-24T21:59:00.000-07:00

life have been sucks dis week.
i've been late for sch like everyday.
was sent to counsellor two days ago. like noob.
teacher had been advicing me.
some more my fucking attitude is changing.
from bad to worse ):
i wanna change and i need help. sobsob.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhsssssss~ !
afiq had been super nice to me :D weee~
sayaaaaaaaaang kau uh fiq.
he has been my listening ear to my sialan problems.
since last time. dier sweet tau. mcm TTM aku. haha.
i wonder why afiq still cared eventho i've changed (?)
afiq, how could i repay youu.. haish.

alfian so caring eyy ! his text msg was touching.
anypoos, i dun knw what to do abt hym ?
he said he's gonna wait and wait for me.
pity hym ):

shahid love judy ? hmph ! fine.

dun talk to me no more eh.

~~mcm jealous ?~~

nooobbb baybeh nooobbb.

2009-09-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

sorry peopos for nt updating.

for like a week ago ?

mum will nt be letting me using th comp.

bt bt ! i'll be using it mysteriously aites. hee (:

my perming of hair kinda sucks. eeyer.

and now, kebabooom. th curls disappeared deh.

haha, kata temporary kaaarrnn isha ? lawls.

nvm, next time will do a permanent one i guess.

andd, my memory card now like kanasai eyy.

isha's photo still inside.

andd im fucking need it to post it here. sialan beh.

nvm, next time still got :DD

pffftt, bby got his phone back ! hurrayy !

for th past few days ;;

i've been coincidencely meet zul botak deh.

aiyerhh. he had been weird -.-

zul : hi (:

hani : hi (:

zul : erm smlm tu gy mane ?

hani : huh ? smlm ? smlm gy mane ?

zul : yg kuar dgn satu family tu.

hani : ouh ! ouh, tu gy woodlands.

zul : ouh. err, skrg msh dgn ajex eh ?

hani : eh, da lamer tk.

zul : ouh. beh skrg dgn saper plak ? (:

hani : heh. erm, ada laaa (:

zul : ouh. eleh. kkay, bye.

i superbly tak paham.

anypoos, a BIG THANKYOUU to ;;
1st revathi
2nd nisa <333
3rd ajoya <333
4th adq isha sexy <333
5th sabrina <3
6th bby <33333
7th iqa hotsuff <333
8th hilmi (!)
9th alfian <3
10th afiq (!)
11th shahid (!)
12th mimi <333
13th katty
for th bday texts andd wishes aites ! (:
last bt nt least, HAPPY 15th BDAY TOO REVATHI !

selamat hari raya to all muslims eyy !

pffftt .

2009-09-13T23:03:00.000-07:00

i guess i'll do a short one eyy.
mum is sleeping and im using th comp quite mysteriously heh.
and i dun have time to upload isha's pic here. grrrr
watch out you sexy ! haha :D
and ouh, im not done wif my assignments. none of it.
bleahh, who cares :X
school timmmeee ! must better buckup (i guess).
mum will get cold towards me if i asks her abt comp,
so will not be updating much. exams arnd th corner anw.
i wanna study. tkmo kacau << mcm paham.

isha, get 100% well soon eh.

i always wish you luck sexy !

t707 !!!!

2009-09-11T23:58:00.000-07:00

i have been craving for dis phone long ago !

like fuck lah~ darian has dis phone.

i want it i want it !!!

anypoos, a very big thankyouuuu to isha !!! :D

i love youu kay sexy ?

thanks for th skin (:

troublesome.

2009-09-11T20:53:00.000-07:00

changed of skin and end of headache-ness (!)
and i think i dun like it.
bt shahid says its okay.
bt i think its not okay. yucks.
im gonna changed it again somehow some day.
anyone any ideas of any skins ? -help-
must bare wif dis skin for sometime i guess.
till i found a nice one (:
anypoos, thanks shahid for some recommendations :D

embarrassing :X

2009-09-11T18:51:00.000-07:00

yeay ! back from lot1 - ALONE.

bought 2 cotton on long sleeve cardi.

somehow im like a dumbass -.-

bought one at first, and th cashier lady was like,

"aren't you buying two ? two for twenty."

and i was like,

"ouh. okay. hold on ah."

stupid me, it was on promotion.

took blue one at first.

and i was rather confuse on what colour shud i pick next.

black or red ?

so i was like fuck~ i took th red one (:

maybe i shud shop wif a guardian or fren along next time.

so i wont be like a dumbass.

embarrassing :X

and im gonna wear either one of it tmr (!)

bt which ? red or blue ?

any suggestion ? anyone ?

*blurrrr*

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

mengapa kau melarikan dirimu..

ku rasa sayu..

ku ingin kau disampingku...

seperti waktu dahulu..

kemana kau menghilangkan dirimu..

ku rasa rindu..

ku mencarimu..

di singgah sana..

dan aku hilang tempat bermanja..

stupid problems.

2009-09-11T11:45:00.000-07:00

ye laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . everything starts from me, me, me, me ! if not bcos of my sis kacau isha, dis stupid conflict wont happen ! if not bcos of YOU disturbing my sis back, dis stupid conflict wont happen !

if not bcos of my family, dis stupid conflict wont happen ! if not bcos of me getting over-angry at YOU, dis stupid conflict wont happen ! have YOU had enough of dis ? tak penat ke ?

do you think by saying sorry will end everything ? i dun nid you to kiss my leg whatsoever. do you think i like it ? its bullshyt. yah fine ! sume aku per ! aku slalu buat kecoh ! suke carik pasal ! suke carik gado ! you think i like all dis stupid nonsense ?! you think i CARE ?! you think i like to fight ?! eh cukop sial dgn sume nk mintak maaf tu sume.

fine ! aku maafkan ! fine ! da puas da ?! ahhhhh~ ! lantak kau ah nk buat aper. suke hati ah asalkan kau bahagia sudaaa. puas ? aku tak yah kau sujud ah eh. go on ah ! go on ah your own path whatever !

da puas lu bilang gua kay !

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i think slitting is worth it.

stupid problems entering in and out of my life.

like kanasai what.

da uh, want go lot1 ALONE !

kakis gerek !

2009-09-10T03:43:00.000-07:00

Enjoy th picas :D

i wanna go out wif them again ! (:

alone-ing.

2009-09-10T02:27:00.000-07:00

just came back from woodlands, ALONE.

seriously, being alone just sucks.

bt somehow it reflexes my mind.

and i think i prefer to be alone right now.

cos its somehow 'syiok'. gaaaaahss~

right now, im being too pathethic.

just confuse abt every problems tht happens arnd me.

i somewhat wanted to smoke again,

since i have one wif me now.

do you think its worth it ? jangan salahkan ku.

i dun think people understands me.

even when i talked my problems to 'her',

'she' wud talked abt 'her' problems back.

'she' aspect me to listen to 'her' rather than mine.

i keep thinking abt dis all over again.

why uh why ?

im gonna put bby's problems aside.

cos i knw there's a reason behind it.

bt if sumpah i cant take it, i think i have to do it.

to release all th stress, i guess.

i find smoking and slitting quite fun.

and i think im repeating my mistakes all over again.

i want go out wif darian and frens again.

i guess they can make me happygolucky (:

da buat salah pas tu ckp sorry pas tu nk belah ?

free entrance in & out maki mak bapak org ?
da salah pas tu nk back off ? nk kluar dari OIAI ?
pasal hal nie, lu mau delete lu punya blog ?
stakat hal kecik gyni peh mcm.
eh gerl, nie bkn care dier ah eh.
stakat gyni mcm, lu mau ikot ego ?
swalayan ah. tk klakar tau.

random one yet frustrating !

2009-09-09T10:17:00.001-07:00

ahhhh fuck~ ! suke hati lah .

i've had enough of it. WhateverYouLike uh.

asalkan kau bahagia sudaaa.

cukop ah eh. cukop.

alasan !

you made my brain gonna burst, bitch.
i can do worse than tht.
suke nah buat org stress gyler babi.
sumpah, cekik darah. bullshyt uh.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

still, no signs of you.
aku terpaksa berkata kpd dirimu.
bahwa kau tidak mengerti perasaanku.
namun kau hancurkan harapanku ini,
dgn semua mahumu..
aku rela berikan apa kemahuanmu,
namun ku menahan segala derita ini.
tak pernah kau terfikir,
apa yang ku lalui selama ini..
oh farhan, hanya engkau yg kusayangi..
oh farhan, ku masih memerlukanmu..
oh farhan, jgn meninggalkan diriku ini..

you made me slit myself. i hate being alone :X

shout th yeay-ness.

2009-09-08T09:23:00.000-07:00

im freaking fucked up wif my phone.

so i copypaste th picas from others. haha (:

my phone make prob mah, so dun blame me.

went art museum today. very exciting at first.

bt my mood went down at last.

art museum nothing much.

interesting art drawings. bleahh

aft tht went 8Q. sit and draw.

too bad th pic of th room is in my phone.

damn wonderful. wish our art room could be one of them soon :D

i dun favour elaborating on our break time.

cos we, mly students, dun eat.

so yeah. whatever.

went art shop then library.

sit and rest while waiting for th chinese students.

aft tht, blablabla.

went break fast wif ct and nisa.

thot of eating LJS at city hall.

so me and nisa walked from bugis to city hall.

bt sadly it went for renovation ):

gaaaaaaaaahhh~

so decided to go for macdonald.

sat for awhile aft being exhausted.

ct came and made decision again to eat LJS at bugis.

so th three of us walked from city hall to bugis.

jerks. what a day.

i was being quiet thru out th walk.

cos i dun pretty knw abt town-ing. hehe.

ct's th expert one. HAHA.

reached LJS and waited.ordered food at 6.45.

and waited for break fast time.

done eating. we went rounding th town. whoaaa~

mats and minahs were arnd.

aft tht, went home took MRT to CCK.

during our journey in mrt, a cliques of two mats and one lady came.

sat in front of us. and make jokes.

th green shirt guy is freaking irritating.

nisa gets too irritated. i find it an entertainment.

HAHA. th pink shirt guy is quite cute. LOLs

reached home and finally away to sleep.

WhateverYouLike.

2009-09-06T11:19:00.000-07:00

helloooooosss peopos !

im back from MIA-ing so long. nyahahas :D
shud nt be updating bt shahid told me so. so, whatever.
thot of uploading two videos bt currently not in th mood.
anything, wanna watch th 'dikir barat jenaka', go view nisaaa's blog.
soon (!) will be uploading 'arvind's tak menjadi magic illusions'.
HAHA. bt not now yea. sorry hor.

anypoos, bby is MIA-ing from friday till now.
i dun knw his condition right now.
bet his phone was being confiscated.
so i dun really knw how to contact him -.-
go smoke some more uhh. kan da kene caught dgn yoong.
haishhhhh !

thanks afiq and emu for being there for me.
thanks emu, your advice is worth it.

i just dun geddit why you did dis to me.
im totally disappointed. im hurt. where's your promise uh ?
your promise to stop smoking cos you loved me.
you shud thank emu for giving me advice thru dis pain.
if nt, i wud have been forgetting you all dis while.
bt now, im still worried abt your condition.
still thinking abt you. still wondering what wud happen next.
bcos i wanna go thru th pain wif you.
i wanna be wif you thru out your problems.
and solve it together. cos i loved you still, no matter how bad you are.

my despair runs so deep, im afraid to admit it.
instead i express my stress thru tears,
tantrums, moaning, screaming,
slitting and smoking.

cos i guess tht wud help.

mineFOREVER.

2009-08-30T10:57:00.001-07:00

i dreamt tht i kissed you, oh baby.

i miss you damn much, countless others.

end soon (!)

sorry wenlid, for stealing dis pic from your blog (:

i admire dis picture very much ^^

bby, when will you play for me ? ):

shahid-hiddy ! i got your pic.
can i post it ?
pleasepleasepleaseplease ! LOL.

5 days counting ;

2009-08-29T01:54:00.000-07:00

i cun upload photos. and it is really ridiculous -.-
i have farezd and b's photos pending.
anyone help ? urghhhh.
sorry, have nt been updating dis days.
due to my sleepy and lazy-ness.
bleahhh.

thursday

went meet bby aft sch bfore project work.
seeing hym is a torture.
crying, is almost -.-'
mcm cannot tahan anymore. bile mau abes puasa ?
aiyaaahhh.
bby said went home wif haziq. so ohkay.

aft project work, went home wif farezd and fariz.
farezd is sucha joker. HAHA.
keep talking abt junkai's crying scene.
rabaaakkkk. HAHAHA :D
and farezd keep disturbing dis particular gerl.
our sch, sec3 express. haha.
at th mean time, th bus was crowded.

farezd : eh gerl, move in can ?
gerl : what ?
hani and fariz : *laugh out loud*
farezd : eh sial jer. tkper tkper. kau tgk jer nanti.
hani : HAHA.
farezd : *stares th gerl*
hani : kau stare dier klakar siol. stop it sak.
farezd : haha. kau diam kau diam. nanti aku ketawe plak.
hani : HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

[skipskipskip]

there's dis particular bangla. kepale senget.
like mr yap. hahhaaaaa.

farezd : *burst in laughters*
hani : asal ?
farezd : kau tgk tu bangla. *burst in laughters*
hani : *burst in laughters too* haha.

~ bastard bodo farezd. ketawe kan org kepale senget. HAHA :D

friday

lesson as per normal. went cca. sucha torture.
boring day. *hates* hmph !
afiq's hoodie is wif me ^^ haha.

lethargic day indeed ;

2009-08-24T07:07:00.000-07:00

th best thing abt today is i cried and laugh :D
thanks to farezd and jun kai. haha. what a joker.
geog lesson is th best. laugh out loud yeah.
serena was looking at jun kai's ezlink
he look fat mann. ohmy :D

serena : jun kai, why u look so fat uh ?
hani : where ? haha. i see i see.
serena : there. lols.
farezd : i want see.
farezd : omg. haha !
jun kai : shut up lah.
farezd : what lah. i dun like fat friends.
serena and hani : LOLs.
jun kai : what th fuck ?!

[skipskipskip]

i cried today bcos of her ! sundal .

to tht bitch whom i thot were a true friend bt a betrayer though ;

bitch, whats ur prob ? anything nt satisfied ? can settle kaaan ? bebual depan uh sial. dun as if i never go cca tht time, nak paoto cikgu aku mls gy cca ? ada aku cakap mcm gytu ? pukimakk uh sundal. aku da kene sound dgn cikgu , kau puas ? puas hati ? betrayer uh. aku cakap dgn kau aku mcm tak nak gy cca, tapy bukan mls gy cca. buto bapak kau. aku bagy warning, kalau aku da tak tahan uh, aku sound kau. dis time, aku buat dekkk. step takda pape jadi uh eh. thanks to you uh bitch. cikgu da disappointed dgn aku. nak turonkan rank aku. pasal kau uh ! tak ley ke tutop mulot for dis time ?! puki ! terima kasih banyak ! sundal haram .

what can i say ?

2009-08-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

BLEAHH ,

that's all i can say.

no comments about today -.-

just much misses bby, i hate it ):

i miss you more each day.

RINDUU , RINDUU SERINDUU RINDUUNYAAAA ...

rinduu sama youu , Sachokbby .

th font is like so freaking small right here ):
oh gosh, cun help it. sorry guyss .

...

2009-08-22T02:49:00.000-07:00

at last ! i can upload photo ! nyahahas .

thanks to isha ! thank you thank you !

random yknw :D

random .

2009-08-22T01:32:00.000-07:00

skip CCA with bby :D

bby, i had fun with you ytd. hilarious !

i love it ! th last one though ):

played catching, sing song, joke arnd.

HAHA. i love youu, boy. truckloads !

i must bare with dis fucking 1month of fasting.

ugh, shyt! i miss you bby, effing much ):

b, sing tht twinkle star song again. so cute of youu !

HAHAHA :D mangat uhh.

today i skip tuisyen ! *winks*

i will be thinking of you everytime .

2 days counting ;

2009-08-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

pathetic blog ! it seems totally different.
and im sooooo not lovin it !
cun upload photos again ! fuck youu ~~
i've been superrr sleepy today ; had not been sleeping ytd whole night.
coooool uh ? and today like wtf ?!?!
geog lesson, hafiza came in scold pple.
pikir mak bpk dier nyer tmpt per.
and some of us have to move to th back of th class ; including me !

bleah, whatever it is, she had cool down. hahhaa :D
had ET then. wahh~ mangat sangat.
i ran like nonstop. two consecutive round mahh~
then got muscle cramp. OH, thanks serena.
my massager. LOL . very niceee lahh sial.
had recess aft tht. skipskipskip.

aft sch meet bby. go guilin. chitchat.
maen penknife jer keje. confiscate baru tawu.
and oh, he injured his finger. at both hands -.-
his leg too. degil kaaannn ? haish.
went buy plaster then, walked off from guilin at abt 2plus nearly 3 ?
bby sent me to sch back and he went home.
i got project work luhh~

bby, 2 more days uh ? very afraid ):
afraid it wont goes like it does bfore. hmphh.
friday last day meet and lpas kan rindu.
i wish dis wont happen. sob sob D;

ILoveYouForWhoYouAre.

2009-08-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

bby ,

its been a sweet time and moments being wif you.
th jokes and laughters we had together.
tears and shed we shared together.
th smiles we have together.
i wont regret being wif you. th precious ones.
we have our ups and downs.
i knw, we seems different. bt who cares.
i love you for who you are.
appearance, age.. it doesnt matter.
all i knw is i love you.
i wish we could still spent more time together.
have fun together.
share problems together.
even dis fasting month is coming, i am afraid.
afraid i wont get to have fun like i used to wif you.
afraid i wont get to feel th touch of your skin no more.
afraid i'll be losing you..
no matter how bad you are,
how you lied to me,
being dishonest,
i will still keep loving you more each day.
i love youu, sachokbby

happyhappy !

2009-08-17T06:22:00.000-07:00

lazy to updateee abt today.

cos it gonna be kinda very looooooooong post aites.

speechless yaw. cannot describe abt today, very super funnyfunny !

thanks budak2 art, cheered me upp early in th morning.

full of laughters :D

err, i cun upload fahim's photo -.-

random yknw. nvm, next time aites.

mom da bising pakai comp skejap tk ley uhh.

so i guess im done ? hmphh.

bby, ur words were true. u made it happen.

today is my bestest day being wif u. i wont regret.

i seek more th next days, future too .

thanks bby, ur babypooh random gift.

i miss youu .

i love youu .

7 days counting ;

2009-08-15T06:49:00.000-07:00

7 days counting ;

to fasting month.

i will nt get those things and get to do those things

i used to like bfore.

i must overcome dis. patience will do.

fuckk~

be guaranteed tht these remaining 7 days

will be your bestest moment..

i seek to your words bby

you'll always be my baby.

2009-08-14T07:11:00.000-07:00

it's just doesnt seems right.
having a feeling of restless during lessons just sucks.
feel like shouting.
managed to overcome it by sleeping.
i've been wondering when will dis end ?
soon will be ? OH, it sucks and its suffering me.

bby, your touch seems wonderful. im missing it right now.

good to see u smiling.

it doesnt seems like it.

2009-08-13T07:30:00.002-07:00

i've been kinda restless dis days. dun ask me why.
feel like throwing my stuffs aside during lessons and walk out of th classroom just like tht.
bt i didnt. i cried ytd to let it all out.
bt still it doesnt work. i dun have someone to talk to like bfore.
where's emu ? who always lends his ears to me.
haish.. where's boyfee who always gives me hug to feel relieve?
i like lost everything i used to have.
it seems very different. has world turned upside down?

pple cried over their probs to me. i felt sad for them.
bt who shud i cry mine to?
dis questions keep running thru my mind.
i had always listen to those who shared their probs to me.
bt i dun seem to see there's anyone who wud listen to mine.
i've been missing father for like half dead.
crying out loud each and every time thinking of hym.
i miss u daddy :'(
its difficult to let you go..

random day;

2009-08-13T06:35:00.000-07:00

sch went as per normal. as per normal as i usually did. sleep during lessons. and i think im gonna repeat sec3. i've been slacking. fit enough. just now, sleep during mt class. and i think my phone drop, cikgu yani saw it. bt she dun seems to care. so i continue to sleep.

i dun have th guts to elaborate more on others. im kinda restless. aft sch met everyone i met. dun ask me who. im lazy to answer. went out sch wif iqa bought drink. b went home took bus wif azhari. came back sch, go studio. includes me, iqa, mimi and katty. camwhored excepts katty. then went back class bcos got project work.

oh, was freaking funny uhh during project work. mr yazid keeps making jokes. and i think i laughed th loudest. HAHA. and avin was like making fun of serena. tak baek taw. and mr yazid was like told us to divide our members into two grps. and there's like 6 members here. kite confuse sendiri. its like no one wants serena to be in th grp. pasal nanti leceh. HAHA. *vantilating*

avin : kay ah mcm gyni, satu due tiga.

shu shia : eh no, one two three. kay?

fatin : ah, set?

avin : tsk. tkda ah, satu due tiga. fair enough?

fatin and shu shia : eh no lah. one two three? da set.

avin : tsk, haish.

hani : *laughs*

fatin : tkper. gyni mcm, kite tanyer hani nk msk grp mane.

avin : ahkay.

fatin and avin : kau nk msk grp saper?

fatin : please ah. aku nyer. please ah.

avin : eh tkmo. aku nyer ah. please. bole ah? (seducing and cute face)

hani : HAHAHA. aku tk tau!

avin : aku nyer grp jer ah. ada fahim. bole ah? (seducing voice)

hani : hah, ntah.

avin : bole ah? bole ah? ( "chubby face " )

hani : aku tk tau lah! *laughs* gy tanyer serena ah nk msk grp mane.

fatin : HAHA. nk step mane cute jer.

serena : *vantilated*

avin : aku tk nk serena ah. nanti dier... *vantilated*

all : ROLF ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

fatin : still LOL. amek jer ah. HAHA

avin : tk nk ah. nanti... *vantilated*

shu shia : kay stop stop. my jaw pain alrdy.

all : still LOL.

avin : hani, msk dgn aku and fahim ah. bole ah?

fahim : *laughs*

hani : aku tk tau ah! HAHAHA

lastly, made a deal. tear paper into pieces and made 'lucky draw'. so i made it to fatin's grp. and avin like pissed off. HAHA. so th end of project work took photo. today's like last session wif mr yazid. awww~ look at th pic above. avin's and fahim's face tk ley angss sey. nk buat muke mane gangster tapy tk menjadi. HAHAHA. i was th camerawoman. thanks to me. huhu. mr yazid's face also.. HAHAHA ! kekeks uhh . done. went meet iqa at her class and went home.

Tuesday blues ?

2009-08-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

OH ! i had moodswings today . and dis pic is kinda random . updating abt today aites .

SocialStudies

blabla. mr sara lectured. kinda sleepy.

everyone is too. and mr sara said he knws why.

kind of tuesday blues ? wtf ?

i keep looking on th newprints*winks*

serena was irritated by me. OH, darian likes pink ?

HAHA. and i keep singing th song ;

he likes pink pink pink and pink !

too bad uh serena, irritating uh ? well, keep it up !

HAHAHA :D

Chemistry

mdm shah came in class. started to be sleepy tho.

AND OH OH ! i saw u sleeping fahim !

HAHA. mulot ternganga per boi ?

kekeks uhh !

had our ACES day test thingy.

conducted by gan botak. and aft tht had our recess.

English

had susan lim and sathiya monitoring our class during eng.

wahh~ irritating i tell youu.

was kinda sleepy, serena told me nt to sleep.

maths lesson then sleep. so i didnt sleep then.

bt almost asleep uhh.

Maths

i sleep like straight away aft eng. WOW heh.

and serena was like hey dun sleep. what th fucking hell?

she told me to sleep during maths lesson. and then ? erghhh.

sleep tho. mr teng gave out test papers.

and i was like continue sleeping. didnt pay attention.

suddenly ; HANIYATI . *applause*

hihi.. my test papers ! 30 and a half to a total of 35 ??

imagine it ! like WOW ! got 32 tho.

bt then minus of marks bcos of wrong properties inserted -.-

then go thru of corrections and done.

aft sch met bby, he went home took things. he said he was having somewhat like headache ? bt refused, still went for cca. stubborn u ! nvm nvm. had cca then. as per normal. mls nk elaborate. aft cca, met bby. gave back his perfume. OhSoTheWangi ! then went out of sch wif iqa. thot of waiting for bby outside. bt then he went lpk wif frens. fine then. dun want elaborate. urghhh~ went carpark wif iqa at goodview there. th last floor. thot of suiciding ? HAHA. thot of.... bt hmmm.. well, went home at abt going 7 like tht. done.

to afiq; thanks for th advice. i just refuse to listen. i dun get what pple want. thts all. thanks for caring. thanks for everything. appreciate manymany. i owe youu boy.

OhSoRandom;

2009-08-11T06:13:00.000-07:00

hees~ sorie pple for th dusty blog. nyahahas

had funn for th past two days. overnight at cuzzy's hse^^

funn funn ! OH, tht photo above. missed it. *winks*

grrrrr, much misses nur and darian.

wahahaha, kite meet lagy kay next time?

take newprints again? huhu

darian was superb th kecoh. he's very funny.

nur is th future ustazah. ya allah !

HAHA, stop it siaa wif th islam thingy.

darian ; baiya baiya ! HAHAHA :D

oh stop it yan wif th cross over road thingy.

pantat mintak kene smack. oh, da kene ponn.

HAHA.

andand, kite byk ketawe uhh. kekeks being wif them !

and oh, wish to meet them again. like duh !

kite gossips and kacau baiya ah. amcm?

klakar siots ! tk ley angss !!

mann, there's more picas wif darian !

DARIAN !!! i want those picas !

pffft;

nur ;; ya allah ! masya allah ( masya eleh ) ! haha.

yan said if she was to be ustazah, islam akan mati dulu !

HAHA :D yan.. yan.. thts what nur keep saying^^

been going west mall wif them (pic above)

took picas. funny funny ! oh its seems cute !

wanna see ? ask from me.

and OH, satu satu muke cute! huhu.

will be meeting them soon ah soon.

please, like im begging ?

miss those laughters i had.

oh i miss baiya ! HAHAHA :D

blueks ! miss playing a fool abt it wif darian.

I WANNA MEET THEM AGAIN ; SOOOOOOOOOON !!

BULLSHYT TWSS GERL !

2009-08-08T06:46:00.000-07:00

to isha andd fazli ;;

i dun want to interfere uhh. nk kwn, fine.
bt since i dun favour my sis lah kan. Fina Sewel;;
i really cun help it uh.
i also dun favour u guys to stick arnd wif her.
chat wif her, even get to knw her.

ur business to be close wif her. bt i just dun like it.
its a big freaking irritating to get to knw tht she added u guys.
its enough lah si fina tu da add farhan eh.
beh bebual konek dgn farhan. cukop.
skrg, i dun favour u guys to be close wif fina.

just to inform, sumpahhh.
fina got no originality. bitch tht teck whye gerl.
dier suke pkai brand org.
serious lah, i just gonna hate u guys sticking and be friends arnd wif her.
just a little note, be careful bile kwn dgn dier.

dier tu tkda kwn. sbb tu add kwn bdk swiss.
tkda kwn buat hal tkda kwn lah oi~!
an advice, being friends wif her is sucha merepek.
okehh, merepek. kak sayang isha andd fazli.
thts why i dun like u guys to be friends even wif fina.
ugh, i hate dis.

2009-08-08T06:34:00.000-07:00

hmphh, whats going on here? seems like th blog is nt okay.
aiyaa, bitch. im just gonna continue here.
and since like th blog is abit soddot, so i guess i cun upload photos.
sucha big fuck! oh well, i cun help it.

let's start. today wake up in th morning at abt 8plusplus.
went masjid, mom told to. take things.
reached there, what i got was kuehs (?) wth.
went home. texted iqa, decided to go outing together. hehs.
went esplanade andd marina. sucha bore i think.
camwhored. OH, so sad cun upload photos ): blame th blog.

had funn wif iqa. wooohooo~! eh, HELLO (?) haha.
iqa, let's make funn abt tht word again shall we?
HELLO ? HELLO ? nyahahas.
if u guys dun geddit, then too bad uhh. hees.
at abt 5plus, thot of going yew tee cos of iqa.
hmphh, th plan was cancelled cos of iqa also.

reached home at 6plus. oh yah, nw im fucked up wif my 'sis'.
bullshyt youu! my mood went down just bcos of her.
im gonna post abt her.

oh shyt. IDUNCARE !

2009-08-06T22:54:00.000-07:00

OH YEAH OH YEAH, i saw hudah just now on my way down from bus 945.

freaking ughhh. I DUN CARE ! shake ur head pple. ur hands too.

and say I DUN CARE ! nyahahas.

oh shyt, i cun upload photos. what th fucking hell going on wif dis blog?!!

2009-08-06T22:25:00.000-07:00

let me update abt two days ago in ite bb.
oh well, nt funn. slacked all th way tho.
ytd had a niceee sleep during lessons at ite. WOW
haahs. im too good. LOL^^
um, i guess lazy to update abt ite things bleahh.

so today nothing much happens. had ndp celeb.
performed. yeah, then celeb ends arnd 10 i think (?)
oh yeah, to syafiqah gemz;;
if u dun like us(mly dncers) bole ckp kan?
no need to sindir th make up things all tht.
oh yeah, da gemok, tk ley joget. buat hal tk ley suaa.
lu relek one corner sudaaa. belah ah eh.

okay done wif tht. aft ndp celeb, mit bby.
went guilin. oooops, forget take picas. oh mann
grrrrr, at guilin met fateha, izzati all th frens blablabla.
saw we changed of places. went dlm guilin lagy.
so yeah, aft tht. arnd 12 we went home.

bby's medicines dabes. bt he said he bought new ones. -.-
bby, u said u bought th medicines. sure tk sure?
neah, i hope so. told him to eat his medicines.
OH YEAH OH YEAH, he's kinda well dis days :DDD

hehs, im done.

2009-08-03T18:10:00.000-07:00

currently 9.10am in sch (art lesson 4 periods) went toilet just now.

met him from a distance, in sucha missed condition. no mood
feel like wanna cry. are you really okay bby? feeling is disturbed ):
my feeling is unsecure D:

I MISS YOUU SO MUCH, I DO REALLY NEED YOUR HUG
*cries in heart*

u have immersed in th colour of my love.

u have struck th chords of my heart.

i love th way u look at me.

i love th way u make me happy.

i love th way u say i love youu andd

i love th way u touched me.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, SWEETHEART !

i love you, now, tmr and forever.

2009-08-02T02:23:00.000-07:00

heyy, changed of skin. like th previous one is better. neahh
OH, didnt went to madrasah today as i was feeling sick. nt well
darn, im feeling way much better now. and im soooo nt like it
i wanna be sick^^ HAHA
now im wondering whether bby has been discharge from hosp anot.
hmphhh (?) cant reply his msg though, prepaid low. like again (!)

i just cant wait for tmr. hours more to go. must wait uh, be patient
tmr can meet. bt will he be okay?
idk. im missing him then. th plan of meeting ytd was cancelled ):
nvm, he was admitted to hosp what.

currently doing/searching art stuff abt photoshop. menyusahkan siaaa
i dun have th guts to do art anymore ! i quit ! u geddit ms nuraini ?
HAHA. okay then, need to finish up my art work^^

bye bitches and bastards. LOL, jkjk :DDD

2009-08-01T02:28:00.000-07:00

I LOVE TO BE SICKKKK !

okay, let's update abt ytd shall we?
erm, had fever, 37.9 in th morning.
so stubborn, went to sch though
who cares. cabot lesson for five periods.
in th toilet wif fatin. whoaaaaa~ mendakk yknw.
then blablabla. aft recess went back class, had lesson as usual.
maths period had test. so didnt studied at all.
congrats. bt managed to overcome th stupid nonsense questions abt maths.

had cca aft sch. rehearsing abt th ndp thingy. very hot th weather.
ohmy ohmy. went home then. took temperature. still 37plus arnd there.
well, nt bad ahhh.. then took temperature again, it went down
so then took again, went up. holyshit baybeh! whats wrong wif me?!

okay so... today, went for cca rehearse again for ndp. finish everything.
satisfied uh. done (?) yeah. then bby text.
he got high fever. oh shit oh shit. he's in th hospital now.
worry worry. sobsob. cry cry. will he be in sch on monday?
god damn it, u made it in th wrong timing uh buat dier sakit.
well ,in th morning, i was fine. super fine. *cough cough*
then went home check temperature, 38.1 (!)
i dun care yeah. why everybody like having fever uh sey?

bt im still strong. bt i wish bby more stronger than me.
he will be getting booster soon. he's trauma abt injections
well, he shud be strong enough right (?) u shud bby.
till now, 5.42pm having fever. my body feels very hot.
no need medicines to cure it. just bby shall do.
geddit? so bby, monday very special. get well soon. ily

:/

2009-07-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

heyy. just viewed on some images on googles.

picked dis. mcm coool gytu. HAHA

it was meant for dinesh.

hey dinesh. dis picture is meant for youu. huhu

bt nt abt th profile thingy bt its youu

stop touching me! eeyer~

dun molest me anymore laa. HAHA

do it again, then FUCK YOUU

injured my knee, nt tht serious.

bcos of dinesh, stop molesting.

grrrrrrrrrrrrr

today aft sch, mit bby. rounding sch. blablabla

bdk sec1 had enrichment. so stayed back to watch

till 4.30 . ughhhh

watch hip hop at hall. hahaha

i came there saw fazli, malu per boy?

tapi mangat. HAHA

so rounding again wif iqa.

walk pass french class and guitar what thingy.

blablabla.

saw bby, holding onto a guitar.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~ !

cairrrrrrr babi.. haha

kkay, then went back to hall tgk hip hop again.

th dance steps very nice sial.

especially norish, joget lawa siot. kencang mauuutt.

lagy2 arissa, joget hip hop dier. kimekkk, tk bole angsssss!

bulu roma naek siaaa tgk drg joget.

bt forget to notice alfa. aiyaaaa

nvm, still got next week.

HAHA.

2009-07-28T08:17:00.000-07:00

gonna be Short and Simple ayes.

today sesangat tkda mood. having moodswings.

cos of bestie tersyg. terikot nanges skali.

beb, tkmo sadsad tau. im here for youu.

th pictures has nothing got to do with it, i guess.

place it for funn. so, yeahh.

i just feel sad for iqa :'(

must cheer her upp everydayy yknw.

it will just be a temporary one.

she's my bestie. u must be strong.

dis nightmare will be over soon ah soon aites.

so till here, as said will be a super short one^^

mom da bising (diam uh!)

kkay, random.

2009-07-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

just viewed on th E-Learning thingy. andd im nt gonna do any of th hwk. nyahahas :D today madrasah ends at three. well, kinda bored. didnt pay attention. bby texted saying he's sick out of a sudden. cannot reply mah. prepaid low. at the same time was worried. is he going to sch tmr? starting to miss him.

blablabla. actually, today nothing interesting happen uh. th only thing is tht, one of my madrasah friend mintak nombo out of a sudden. it's a she (!) was blurblur. so just give her my number. and went back home from madrasah, receive a msg bt from a guy (?) huhu, my madrasah friend.

had a short chat wif him. ask abt my status, dis and tht. blablabla. now, im fucked up wif mom. ugh, suddenly called. panas siol telinga. lazy to elaborate on it. now im wondering what bby is doing. still sick? eaten ur medicine? hows u now? ohmy ohmy. wished i was by his side now.

sadsad. so now, im still wondering whether i must do th E-Learning thingy. dun feel like. so i guess im nt gonna do it. so i guess again must do it tmr aft sch (?) is it a must? peh leceh. i dun want to. cos tmr i want go see bby right aft sch! huh~

till here~~ bye :DD

TO HER;

TAK PHM UH SIAAAA (?!) APER SIOT? KAU CKP AKU SLALU DGR CKP ORG, TANAK BERDPN DGN KAU DULU. AKU MISUNDERSTOOD AH KIREKN? TP EH, SKRG AKU NK TANYER. KAU PON TAK PUAS HATI PER DGN AKU SMPAI NK KENE BEBUAL DGN NISA NIE SUME. SMPAI AKU DPT TAU DARI ORG LAEN. BOLE BERDPN PER? KAU CKP KAU NK RAPAT DGN SI TONGKOL TU MENTANG2 KITE DGN BDK SEC1 KAU TK FAVOUR TU. KAU PON SAMER PER. KENE BERDPN DGN AKU PER KALO TK PUAS HATI KN. APAPE UH EH.

2009-07-19T04:27:00.000-07:00

today was freaking overwhelming!

whoaaaaaaa~!

HAHA. wake up early in th morning at abt 9plus.

blablabla. went to mosque got what thingy i dun really knw.

yeah, pat masjid al-iman at th basement.

i went there alone as sis tk nk ikot.

so was kekok being alone.

reached there, sit waiting for th programme to start.

then mamat ni sat beside me.

bulu roma naek ! hahaha.

i was super kekok. eat beside him and so on.

he did talked to me. offered me drink.

he is a gentleman. nyahahas :D

skipskip. went to madrasah then.

finish, went to plaza bought something.

went home andd eateat. yummy.

bby, sorie tak layan satu hari ni ):

i feel guilty. prepaid low mcm babi.

mom dun want topup.

i miss youu effing muchmuch ! will topup soon.

u takecare baekbaek. i loveyouuverymuch.

hees. i guess thts all for today?

yeah.

you are ♥

th light to my darkness

th stars to my future

th souls to my heart

th sun to my day

th moon to my night

th rainbow to my romance

you are my one andd only bby..

imissyouusoooooooomuchhhh!

to her

2009-07-18T03:32:00.000-07:00

sapp!

again, here to tell you a story abt this particular gurl.
tht she is my friend who i understands bt she dun.
malay version.

okay gurl, i have to say ah kay.
if ur not satisfied wif me and my bestie lah kan,
bole cakap tak budak?
i have had enough of this lah eh.
just bcos kite lepak dgn jantan kite, kau aper hal?

dulu kau bole ah lepak dgn jantan kau tu.
smpai kite pon kau mane heran.
kite buat bodo sial. tp part kite, kau nk interfere?
kau tak puas hati aper uh?
salah per kite dgn jantan kite? skali skale sial.

kite at least ada layan kau pat skola..
tak buat bodo kan. budak, please lah kay.
kau buat hal jer ah dgn jantan kau ntah tak tau pasal att ke tak.
aku tak tau nak cakap aper lagy ah eh.
cume nak cakap. tak puas hati cakap dpn2.
aku tak favour budak bebual blakang aku.

andd, aku tau pasal jantan aku, kau tak puas hati?
tak yah nak complain dgn jantan kau per.
eh, can you stand up on ur own feet?
please ah, dgn jantan kau nak step power.
tolong ah eh. da buat baek, nak carik pasal lagy.
cukop ah budak.

pasal jantan aku marah kau pasal bende goncang,
kau nak darah up ah?
eh, hal kecik sial. nak darah up buat aper?
mepek ah tau. aku da cannot stand ah dgn sume ni.
lebih baek kite tak yah kenal each other sudaa.

lagy pon, aku dgn bestie aku rapat dgn budak sec1.
SO??? eh junior kite per. tak salah kan?
aku tau ah kau tak favour drg.
tp kau tak kenal drg ah. tkmo think bad pasal drg dulu ah.
drg baek, kau mane tau. drg pon gerek per.

eh budak, cukop tau.
dengar sini, aku tak pape kalo kau bebual pasal hal ni dpn aku.
aku tak kesah. tp da kau bebual blakang pasal kite,
da over sial tu.
tak suke kite lepak dgn jantan kite? mepek ah
kau dgn jantan kau dulu bole per siaaa.
kau pikir aku dgn kau kene 24/7 per? eh layan ah.

bkn kau sorang per pat dunia ni.
eh, one more thing.
mentang2 kite dgn bdk sec1 kau tak favour tu,
kau pon nak revenge ah rapat dgn si tongkol tu?
hah? buat kite jealous? buat kite naik darah?
please ah budak. cukop kay.

2009-07-18T02:55:00.000-07:00

this picture was captured by iqa.
yeahh, so this post is gonna be everything about him.

farhan♥farhan♥farhan♥farhan♥farhan♥

okay?

so basically, im missing him right now.

i miss holding his hand. tht was sweet though

haha. i think he's facing a problem again.

he was sad where i dun knw tht

aft i send him a sweet msg tht he's happy back.

i guess.

bi, dun sadsad lagy kay? i dun favour tht.

i want ur smile like last time.

those cute smile tht makes me go giddy up :D

apparently, my prepaid is low.

mom dun want topup for me D: sobsob

cannot msg him, cannot comfort him

cannot smoochsmooch ah sey.

hmphh.. wanna knw something?

i loooovvveeeee him ! ada paham tak?

i miss him effing much too D:

can meet you everyday tak bi?

nak lepaskn rinduu uh.

HAHA~! *winks*

i love th way u look at me, ur eyes so bright & blue.

i love th way u kiss me, ur lips so soft & smooth.

i love th way u make me happy, and th ways u show care.

i love th way u say "iloveyouu", and th way ur always there.

i love th way u touch me, always sending chills down my spine.

i love tht ur wif me, and glad tht ur mine♥

hidup mana tak susah

2009-07-10T19:01:00.000-07:00

i have many stories to share wif you guys. hehe
firstly, went to sch in th morning =.=
had english lesson first three periods.
thought of nak 'caboooott' but plan cancelled.
got compre test. yeah so blablabla
then physics period, didnt pay attention.
polish my nail in class. haha
aft tht recess. me and fatin were outside th canteen.
dickson came towards us saying mr yoong were arnd our class,
dun knw do what. spotcheck i guess.
dickson was panick. bought sweet drinks somemore.
so intend to enter maths lesson later.
so three of us walked thru th back of canteen.
npk hudah, stop it laa jalan eh. tk perlu laa sey
mata btol kan sikit dulu ah. sume org kau nak complain.
kecot buat hal kecot. lembek kental siaaa

get back to topic.
then saw one of this teacher. was holding my bottle of sweet drink.
100++ lime. so yeah was panick. buat aper?
fatin was in front. me and dickson run ah abehh.
fatin also panick and run too.
fatin followed dickson. i run th opp way.
mepek uhh. otw, saw douglas, tsz lok and jun kai.
dorang kena caught pasal hair problem
they 'cabooooott' from tht barber ah i guess.
then saw fatin and dickson aft a while of separation. HA-HA

stop near th staircase and bebual uh
saw mr damian then and here it goes..
th six of us run again. went to third floor.
take th staircase near th 1n1 class to fourth floor
saw mr yoong i guess. run mcm mad-dog
HAHA. panick siaa sume. pecah belah
dickson walked back to class. me and fatin went to toilet
th rest tak tau go where.
meanwhile fatin got stomach cramps.
so she stayed in tht third floor girls toilet near 1n1
while i went back to class late as planned.
mr teng asked dis and tht. belit cite ah
aft maths, art. and so on. sch ended
met iqa and went to peninsula for some reasons.

at abt 3plusplus jumpe sachokbby.
went to guilin and yeahh. dpt cubit pipi dier ah sey !
happy ah bby. buat lagy ah, nanti pipi merah. HAHA
at abt five, sachokbby have to go home
so we went home. otw jalan, keep disturbing him abt fatin
"u pkai condom tak buat dgn dier pat atas katil?" HAHA
paisey ah dier. i tak buat lagy ah kay? joking jer.
then jumper iqa, go lot1 and went home at 5plus.
now, sachokbby facing problems. and im not lovin it
rembat uh tu bdk step mane besar
im missing him though had met him just now.
sorry, will give u hug soon ah soon..
be comfortable bby. settle ur problem soon
i still want to see u smiling :)

2009-07-06T20:57:00.000-07:00

currently in school.
taking th advantage to use th comp now.
will be INACTIVE geddit?
not tht into comp now.
here, recording our own voice for dun knw what.
mates are fooling arnd wif it.
kekek siaaa. tkkkk bole angkat!
th record thingy keep repeating whatever it is.
i knw im high now. huahua!
hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!
okay, short post for this.
HA-HA.

boredomm strike !

2009-06-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

sorie for th dead-blogging. yeah.

im kinda nt in a mood now.

tmr got obs camp. well, yeah.

nt excited anw. ?

bby's pp8 low. astaga

missing hym freaking like heaven!

aiyaa. nt prepared yet for tmr.

who cares. i dun care.

let's shorten it, yeah?

today nothing happen.

tht's all. haha.

you shud knw bby ..

ily, tht's true.

INACTIVE !

for th moment .

2009-06-13T04:25:00.000-07:00

woke up in th morning today at 8plusplus and yeah was still sleepy.

mom wake me up. went to HDB flat at toa payoh with abg sedare and sistas.

took th lrt then mrt to toa payoh.

was doing nothing, but hearing songs.

thinking of hym. prepaid low nvr topup.

fuck, so sadd. but at least he got company which is his kakak angs.

reached toa payoh, meet aunty go HDB flat.

then dun knw mom and aunty do what.

sat on th chair, look at pple arnd.

done, then mom said dun knw what happen.

need to go HDB flat at cck then. aiyo.
i was sleepy still but tercuci mate. lols.

ASTAGHFIRULLAHALAZIM.

saw teck whye mats but then not interested.

continue walking. took th mrt to cck.

reached the HDB flat. then waited like abt 1hr40mins.

tiring yeahh. so did take some pics.

and aft tht, was a relieved. DONE!

at abt 12.40? i think.

then went to pasar mlm, bought food to eat.

since in th morning tk mkn.

mom bought durians. eeyer!

then i have to carry it. so, i did.

then went straight back home by bus.

in th bus, felt like vomiting. yucks! th durians!

smell awful, not really ah.

hah, omgyy. jajaja.

reached home, watch tv. missing bby ALOT!

cannot text as prepaid was low.

sibei, want to use bill cannot.

not allowed ley.

then blablabla.. err, thts all i think.

huhu.

i miss youu, bby!

mangat.